1:39:33 <agnes_in_wonderland_76> I had hoped you’d come back

1:39:46 <agnes_in_wonderland_76> Why did you leave?

1:39:14 <crushedmarigolds> I was scared

1:39:55 <agnes_in_wonderland_76> Scared of what?

1:40:03 <crushedmarigolds> Losing you

1:40:12 <agnes_in_wonderland_76> Why would you lose me?

1:40:20 <crushedmarigolds> Because I thought about telling you what I really wanted

1:40:29 <agnes_in_wonderland_76> I want you to tell me. I need you to tell me.

1:40:46 <crushedmarigolds> You won’t be scared?

1:40:57 <agnes_in_wonderland_76> You could never scare me

1:41:05 <crushedmarigolds> I want a woman to belong to me

1:41:13 <agnes_in_wonderland_76> I want that, too

1:41:22 <crushedmarigolds> No, you don’t get it

1:41:34 <agnes_in_wonderland_76> I’m trying. Just help me out

1:41:39 <crushedmarigolds> I want somebody I can take care of – in every possible way

1:41:44 <agnes_in_wonderland_76> Yes

1:41:49 <crushedmarigolds> Somebody who answers only to me, as if I were the hand of God that feeds them

1:42:03 <crushedmarigolds> Somebody who would be willing to give up their freedom so that I could command them

1:42:12 <crushedmarigolds> I would have access to their email, their bank account – every little thing that makes up a fully formed person

1:42:19 <crushedmarigolds> They would belong to me and, in return, I would take care of them the way a mother nurtures a child

1:42:28 <crushedmarigolds> They would never work another day in their life, unless they wanted to

1:42:39 <crushedmarigolds> I would do everything in my power to protect them, to care for them – as long as they willingly gave themselves to me

1:42:54 <crushedmarigolds> Are you still there?

1:43:01 <agnes_in_wonderland_76> I’m here

1:43:09 <crushedmarigolds> Are you scared?

1:43:17 <agnes_in_wonderland_76> No

1:43:26 <crushedmarigolds> You asked what I wanted

1:43:33 <agnes_in_wonderland_76> Yes, I wanted to know

1:43:40 <crushedmarigolds> I understand if you’d rather keep your distance for awhile

1:43:49 <agnes_in_wonderland_76> I’ll do it

1:43:58 <crushedmarigolds> What?

1:44:06 <agnes_in_wonderland_76> I would give myself entirely to you

1:44:17 <agnes_in_wonderland_76> After everything you’ve done for me

1:44:27 <crushedmarigolds> You’re serious?

1:44:39 <agnes_in_wonderland_76> I told you I wanted to repay you for your kindness

1:44:44 <crushedmarigolds> No

1:44:52 <agnes_in_wonderland_76> What do you mean “no?”

1:45:03 <crushedmarigolds> I want you to say “yes” because it’s something you want, yearn for. Not because it’s a debt you feel you need to repay

1:45:10 <agnes_in_wonderland_76> It’s something I want, believe me

1:45:19 <agnes_in_wonderland_76> If you promise to take care of me

1:45:28 <crushedmarigolds> I would

1:45:37 <agnes_in_wonderland_76> Then, it’s something I want

1:45:49 <crushedmarigolds> You’re sure you’re willing to do this?

1:45:59 <agnes_in_wonderland_76> I would do anything for you

1:46:04 <crushedmarigolds> Yes

1:46:09 <agnes_in_wonderland_76> I’m serious

1:46:18 <crushedmarigolds> If you’re serious, I’ll draw up a contract

1:46:22 <agnes_in_wonderland_76> Fancy

1:46:29 <crushedmarigolds> I’ll send it over in a day or two

1:46:38 <agnes_in_wonderland_76> I’ll be waiting for it

1:46:44 <crushedmarigolds> Talk soon?

1:46:50 <agnes_in_wonderland_76> Yeah, talk soon

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