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Chapters (73)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Also by Anita Frank
  4. Note to Readers
  5. Dedication
  6. Part One
  7. Chapter One
  8. Chapter Two
  9. Chapter Three
  10. Chapter Four
  11. Chapter Five
  12. Chapter Six
  13. Chapter Seven
  14. Chapter Eight
  15. Chapter Nine
  16. Chapter Ten
  17. Chapter Eleven
  18. Chapter Twelve
  19. Chapter Thirteen
  20. Chapter Fourteen
  21. Chapter Fifteen
  22. Chapter Sixteen
  23. Chapter Seventeen
  24. Chapter Eighteen
  25. Chapter Nineteen
  26. Chapter Twenty
  27. Chapter Twenty-One
  28. Chapter Twenty-Two
  29. Chapter Twenty-Three
  30. Chapter Twenty-Four
  31. Chapter Twenty-Five
  32. Chapter Twenty-Six
  33. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  34. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  35. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  36. Chapter Thirty
  37. Chapter Thirty-One
  38. Chapter Thirty-Two
  39. Chapter Thirty-Three
  40. Chapter Thirty-Four
  41. Chapter Thirty-Five
  42. Chapter Thirty-Six
  43. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  44. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  45. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  46. Chapter Forty
  47. Part Two
  48. Chapter Forty-One
  49. Chapter Forty-Two
  50. Chapter Forty-Three
  51. Chapter Forty-Four
  52. Chapter Forty-Five
  53. Chapter Forty-Six
  54. Chapter Forty-Seven
  55. Chapter Forty-Eight
  56. Chapter Forty-Nine
  57. Chapter Fifty
  58. Chapter Fifty-One
  59. Chapter Fifty-Two
  60. Chapter Fifty-Three
  61. Chapter Fifty-Four
  62. Chapter Fifty-Five
  63. Chapter Fifty-Six
  64. Chapter Fifty-Seven
  65. Chapter Fifty-Eight
  66. Chapter Fifty-Nine
  67. Chapter Sixty
  68. Acknowledgements
  69. Extract
  70. Chapter One
  71. Chapter Two
  72. Chapter Three
  73. About the Publisher

He does not reveal how closely he has watched the little bird over the past number of days, committing its form to memory. Or the careful hours he has spent sat on the edge of his camp bed in the lamplight, carving a piece of pine log into shape before sanding it with glass paper, following the grain with patience and care until the wood became so warm in his hands it was as if he had given life to his creation. Nor does he reveal his special trip into the village to order paints from the store, returning to collect them a couple of days later, or how he has painstakingly experimented with colour, blending globules of pigment on a broken saucer he found discarded behind the shed until he had perfected the shades required.

And never will he reveal that the fashioning of the nuthatch was not simply a way of passing the time, but an expression of the love he has come to feel for the farmer’s daughter. He knows it is pointless to lose his heart to her, but it is too late. She has elicited his love as unwittingly as she has received the nuthatch. He has begun to dread the day that he knows must come, the day he must leave her, for he cannot stay – for his own preservation, he cannot stay, and yet his own preservation seems so inconsequential now. Indeed, the delight in her face seems to confirm this conviction, for surely nothing that might await him, should he survive, could surpass the joy of witnessing her present pleasure and knowing he is responsible for it. But he is aware his feelings are unreciprocated, though he can’t help but wonder … if he was able to stay, if a future with possibilities – a future unblemished by his past – now stretched before him, might he be able to win her heart? It grieves him that he will never be free to try.

‘You’re very clever.’ She gifts him a smile so generous his chest must expand to take it. ‘Thank you.’

‘I say, Gwen! You’re taking an age, come back inside.’ Gordon emerges from the doorway. He glances between them, his eyes narrowing a fraction as he places his arm around Gwen’s back. ‘Is it all arranged? I’ll bring Gwen home, there’s no need for you to trouble yourself.’

‘It was never any trouble,’ Jack says quietly.

‘Look what Jack made!’ Gwen holds up the nuthatch for Gordon’s inspection.

‘Oh, how quaint. Can we go and dance now?’

‘Yes, yes, of course.’ For a moment, Jack thinks she means to say something to him, but she appears to change her mind and instead releases the clasp of her clutch. She drops the little bird inside; it clatters against her compact. She snaps the bag shut. ‘Actually, I just need to pop to the powder room – shall I meet you by the bar?’