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Chapters (73)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Also by Anita Frank
  4. Note to Readers
  5. Dedication
  6. Part One
  7. Chapter One
  8. Chapter Two
  9. Chapter Three
  10. Chapter Four
  11. Chapter Five
  12. Chapter Six
  13. Chapter Seven
  14. Chapter Eight
  15. Chapter Nine
  16. Chapter Ten
  17. Chapter Eleven
  18. Chapter Twelve
  19. Chapter Thirteen
  20. Chapter Fourteen
  21. Chapter Fifteen
  22. Chapter Sixteen
  23. Chapter Seventeen
  24. Chapter Eighteen
  25. Chapter Nineteen
  26. Chapter Twenty
  27. Chapter Twenty-One
  28. Chapter Twenty-Two
  29. Chapter Twenty-Three
  30. Chapter Twenty-Four
  31. Chapter Twenty-Five
  32. Chapter Twenty-Six
  33. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  34. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  35. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  36. Chapter Thirty
  37. Chapter Thirty-One
  38. Chapter Thirty-Two
  39. Chapter Thirty-Three
  40. Chapter Thirty-Four
  41. Chapter Thirty-Five
  42. Chapter Thirty-Six
  43. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  44. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  45. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  46. Chapter Forty
  47. Part Two
  48. Chapter Forty-One
  49. Chapter Forty-Two
  50. Chapter Forty-Three
  51. Chapter Forty-Four
  52. Chapter Forty-Five
  53. Chapter Forty-Six
  54. Chapter Forty-Seven
  55. Chapter Forty-Eight
  56. Chapter Forty-Nine
  57. Chapter Fifty
  58. Chapter Fifty-One
  59. Chapter Fifty-Two
  60. Chapter Fifty-Three
  61. Chapter Fifty-Four
  62. Chapter Fifty-Five
  63. Chapter Fifty-Six
  64. Chapter Fifty-Seven
  65. Chapter Fifty-Eight
  66. Chapter Fifty-Nine
  67. Chapter Sixty
  68. Acknowledgements
  69. Extract
  70. Chapter One
  71. Chapter Two
  72. Chapter Three
  73. About the Publisher

‘Aye, it is that.’

‘When I was little, I was given a bird-spotting book by my great aunt one Christmas. Each page was dedicated to an individual bird – you know the sort of thing, a little bit about its habits and where it could be found, what it ate and so on – and each had a watercolour illustration. I spent hours going through that book, but out of all the birds it was the nuthatch that caught my eye.’

She leans against the wall beside him, her shoulders curving against the render. ‘I said to Dad, “I’d love to see a nuthatch” and he just laughed and said, “Spend some time in the garden with your eyes open and you’ll see your nuthatch.” I didn’t believe him – I wouldn’t accept that I could have missed something so beautiful. How could that bird be found in our very own garden and me not notice it? But I did as he said, and sure enough a couple of days later I saw one skittering over the bark of the apple tree, and it was even more beautiful in the flesh than it was in the book.’ She shades her eyes with her flattened hand. ‘Isn’t it funny how sometimes the very thing we long for can be right in front of us and we just never see it?’

Jack says nothing. He keeps a steady watch on the grey-blue bird hugging the rippled bark, his heart too full to muster a response. In a rapid flutter of wings the bird is gone and the moment is lost. Gwen pushes herself from the wall.

‘Come on, work to do.’

They have been set the task of weeding the sugar beet. They work a few rows apart, their hoes scraping against the flints in the soil as they prise out the charlock and the groundsel, the chickweed and the shepherd’s purse. They bend and pull, and shake the earth loose from the roots, before tossing the vanquished growth into a pile to be burnt later. They are easy with each other and the silence between them is comfortable. A buzzard glides above them, its plaintive mew drawing their attention. They watch it land on a fractured branch of the dead elm that stands in the corner of the field and Gwen tells him how the tree, now the colour of weathered bone, was struck by lightning when she was a little girl. She wipes the sweat from her forehead with the heel of her hand, leaving a streak of dirt. It is all Jack can do to stop himself reaching over to brush it away.

They work on. Every so often Gwen straightens up, poised to speak, but then appears to change her mind and, blushing furiously, returns to her task with renewed vigour. Her behaviour strikes Jack as curious. She reminds him of the nuthatch – striking, but nervous.

‘Jack …’ she starts at last, resting on her hoe.