Back The Return
Chapters (73)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Also by Anita Frank
  4. Note to Readers
  5. Dedication
  6. Part One
  7. Chapter One
  8. Chapter Two
  9. Chapter Three
  10. Chapter Four
  11. Chapter Five
  12. Chapter Six
  13. Chapter Seven
  14. Chapter Eight
  15. Chapter Nine
  16. Chapter Ten
  17. Chapter Eleven
  18. Chapter Twelve
  19. Chapter Thirteen
  20. Chapter Fourteen
  21. Chapter Fifteen
  22. Chapter Sixteen
  23. Chapter Seventeen
  24. Chapter Eighteen
  25. Chapter Nineteen
  26. Chapter Twenty
  27. Chapter Twenty-One
  28. Chapter Twenty-Two
  29. Chapter Twenty-Three
  30. Chapter Twenty-Four
  31. Chapter Twenty-Five
  32. Chapter Twenty-Six
  33. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  34. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  35. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  36. Chapter Thirty
  37. Chapter Thirty-One
  38. Chapter Thirty-Two
  39. Chapter Thirty-Three
  40. Chapter Thirty-Four
  41. Chapter Thirty-Five
  42. Chapter Thirty-Six
  43. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  44. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  45. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  46. Chapter Forty
  47. Part Two
  48. Chapter Forty-One
  49. Chapter Forty-Two
  50. Chapter Forty-Three
  51. Chapter Forty-Four
  52. Chapter Forty-Five
  53. Chapter Forty-Six
  54. Chapter Forty-Seven
  55. Chapter Forty-Eight
  56. Chapter Forty-Nine
  57. Chapter Fifty
  58. Chapter Fifty-One
  59. Chapter Fifty-Two
  60. Chapter Fifty-Three
  61. Chapter Fifty-Four
  62. Chapter Fifty-Five
  63. Chapter Fifty-Six
  64. Chapter Fifty-Seven
  65. Chapter Fifty-Eight
  66. Chapter Fifty-Nine
  67. Chapter Sixty
  68. Acknowledgements
  69. Extract
  70. Chapter One
  71. Chapter Two
  72. Chapter Three
  73. About the Publisher

By the time they break for lunch, Jack’s palms are sore with fluid-filled blisters, his skin chafed by the billhook’s wooden handle, but he makes no complaint. Instead, he helps the farmer gather the rubbish into a heap. Jim sets it alight with a match and it crackles and pops as the fire takes hold. He roots around for a long stick and when he finds one that pleases him, he unwraps the Spam sandwiches that Muriel has cut for them, and skewers one on the end to toast over the building flames. When it is cooked to his satisfaction, he pulls it free, juggling it like a hot potato as he offers it to Jack, amused by his dubious expression. The bread is a little charred, Jack finds, as he takes his first tentative bite, but the overall effect is surprisingly tasty and soon he is enjoying the hot sandwich with gusto, grinning sheepishly at the farmer’s teasing taunts of ‘doubting Thomas’.

Jim leaves him alone just before four, charging him with completing the task while he returns to the farm for the afternoon milking. Jack works consistently, pausing every so often to wipe the sweat from his forehead with the back of his arm, squinting up into the blue sky at a bird of prey he is unable to identify. As it wheels above him, he marvels at the unfamiliar peace of nature – the soft rush of rippling leaves, the warbling bird song, the thrum of bees crawling over the speckled petals of bramble blossom. For a moment, he is captivated by the fluttering dance of a butterfly, so blue it is as if a fragment of sky has fallen to earth to play upon the gentle breeze. For the first time since leaving Newcastle something settles inside him, filling the emptiness in the pit of his stomach, and the ever-present pain in his chest that has threatened to consume him recedes a fraction.

But it proves a false respite. Jenny requires no invitation to invade his thoughts, because she is already there, lingering in the dark recesses of his mind, a ghost he can sense if not see. Just as he is beginning to take succour in the new marvels that surround him, her spirit, unbidden, whispers into his consciousness and he finds himself thinking how she would have delighted in this bucolic scene. His vision blurs as an image of her tipping her freckled face to the sun burns itself into his mind’s eye. In an instant, with a flood of anguish and remorse, his quiet contentment is destroyed. He is grateful then that he is alone. As the sun becomes lost behind a cavalcade of cloud the raptor plummets upon its prey, and sobs wrack Jack’s body as he weeps for all that is lost and for acts that can never be undone.