Back The Return
Chapters (73)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Also by Anita Frank
  4. Note to Readers
  5. Dedication
  6. Part One
  7. Chapter One
  8. Chapter Two
  9. Chapter Three
  10. Chapter Four
  11. Chapter Five
  12. Chapter Six
  13. Chapter Seven
  14. Chapter Eight
  15. Chapter Nine
  16. Chapter Ten
  17. Chapter Eleven
  18. Chapter Twelve
  19. Chapter Thirteen
  20. Chapter Fourteen
  21. Chapter Fifteen
  22. Chapter Sixteen
  23. Chapter Seventeen
  24. Chapter Eighteen
  25. Chapter Nineteen
  26. Chapter Twenty
  27. Chapter Twenty-One
  28. Chapter Twenty-Two
  29. Chapter Twenty-Three
  30. Chapter Twenty-Four
  31. Chapter Twenty-Five
  32. Chapter Twenty-Six
  33. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  34. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  35. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  36. Chapter Thirty
  37. Chapter Thirty-One
  38. Chapter Thirty-Two
  39. Chapter Thirty-Three
  40. Chapter Thirty-Four
  41. Chapter Thirty-Five
  42. Chapter Thirty-Six
  43. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  44. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  45. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  46. Chapter Forty
  47. Part Two
  48. Chapter Forty-One
  49. Chapter Forty-Two
  50. Chapter Forty-Three
  51. Chapter Forty-Four
  52. Chapter Forty-Five
  53. Chapter Forty-Six
  54. Chapter Forty-Seven
  55. Chapter Forty-Eight
  56. Chapter Forty-Nine
  57. Chapter Fifty
  58. Chapter Fifty-One
  59. Chapter Fifty-Two
  60. Chapter Fifty-Three
  61. Chapter Fifty-Four
  62. Chapter Fifty-Five
  63. Chapter Fifty-Six
  64. Chapter Fifty-Seven
  65. Chapter Fifty-Eight
  66. Chapter Fifty-Nine
  67. Chapter Sixty
  68. Acknowledgements
  69. Extract
  70. Chapter One
  71. Chapter Two
  72. Chapter Three
  73. About the Publisher

Gwen stops in surprise as the young woman addresses her. She could have allowed Gwen to pass by without comment, but instead she catches her before she disappears around the bend. Now that she boldly reveals herself, Gwen sees it is none other than Helen Allingham.

‘Is your little boy all right?’

‘Yes – no thanks to your husband.’

‘I’m sorry about what happened. You’ll be pleased to know we got into a frightful row about it.’

It is clear without need for careful examination that she has indeed been crying, but there is more damning evidence on Helen Allingham’s face than silken tear tracks. Her lip is split at the edge and a stark red blemish mars her porcelain complexion. Gwen looks upon her, appalled. Helen Allingham’s fingers instinctively rise to the damage. She averts her gaze to the field beside her.

‘So, it turns out your husband came back after all.’ Her tone is sharp but it contains an intriguing undernote that prevents Gwen from walking away, as instinct tells her to.

‘You didn’t think he would?’

‘Gordon was so sure.’

‘And you thought I was lying?’

‘You still could be. Just because your husband came back doesn’t mean he’s Tom’s father.’ Her bruised face takes on a sly look. ‘Perhaps he has come back because he loves you … and because of that, he is prepared to love Tom too – just as I am willing to do, if Tom is Gordon’s.’

‘Well, he’s not.’

Helen shrugs, as if the debate fails to interest her now. ‘All I wanted was a child …’ she says quietly.

‘You can’t have mine.’

‘I can’t have any now.’ She is curdled by bitterness and makes no attempt to conceal the fact.

‘You could adopt,’ Gwen says, coming forward. ‘Plenty of children need homes.’

‘I told you before, I couldn’t take in a stranger. I could have accepted Tom.’ Helen glances back at her, before returning her gaze to the field. ‘You should have let me have him, you know, regardless. Do you know the kind of life I could have given him? The royal family are often guests of my parents. I myself have shot grouse beside the Duke of Windsor.’

‘Tom doesn’t need that type of life. Connections don’t enrich anyone … love does.’

‘Love,’ Helen snorts.

‘Yes, love … don’t you love Gordon?’

‘I was charmed by him. We were a good match, that was the important thing.’

‘What? You with your five thousand acres and him with his ten?’

‘Eight,’ she corrects sharply. ‘And yes, things like that do matter and they can make all the difference.’

‘Money can’t buy you everything, though, can it?’

‘It can’t buy me a natural child of my own, if that’s what you’re getting at. You like rubbing my nose in it, don’t you?’

‘Did you ever love him, Gordon?’