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Chapters (73)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Also by Anita Frank
  4. Note to Readers
  5. Dedication
  6. Part One
  7. Chapter One
  8. Chapter Two
  9. Chapter Three
  10. Chapter Four
  11. Chapter Five
  12. Chapter Six
  13. Chapter Seven
  14. Chapter Eight
  15. Chapter Nine
  16. Chapter Ten
  17. Chapter Eleven
  18. Chapter Twelve
  19. Chapter Thirteen
  20. Chapter Fourteen
  21. Chapter Fifteen
  22. Chapter Sixteen
  23. Chapter Seventeen
  24. Chapter Eighteen
  25. Chapter Nineteen
  26. Chapter Twenty
  27. Chapter Twenty-One
  28. Chapter Twenty-Two
  29. Chapter Twenty-Three
  30. Chapter Twenty-Four
  31. Chapter Twenty-Five
  32. Chapter Twenty-Six
  33. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  34. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  35. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  36. Chapter Thirty
  37. Chapter Thirty-One
  38. Chapter Thirty-Two
  39. Chapter Thirty-Three
  40. Chapter Thirty-Four
  41. Chapter Thirty-Five
  42. Chapter Thirty-Six
  43. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  44. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  45. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  46. Chapter Forty
  47. Part Two
  48. Chapter Forty-One
  49. Chapter Forty-Two
  50. Chapter Forty-Three
  51. Chapter Forty-Four
  52. Chapter Forty-Five
  53. Chapter Forty-Six
  54. Chapter Forty-Seven
  55. Chapter Forty-Eight
  56. Chapter Forty-Nine
  57. Chapter Fifty
  58. Chapter Fifty-One
  59. Chapter Fifty-Two
  60. Chapter Fifty-Three
  61. Chapter Fifty-Four
  62. Chapter Fifty-Five
  63. Chapter Fifty-Six
  64. Chapter Fifty-Seven
  65. Chapter Fifty-Eight
  66. Chapter Fifty-Nine
  67. Chapter Sixty
  68. Acknowledgements
  69. Extract
  70. Chapter One
  71. Chapter Two
  72. Chapter Three
  73. About the Publisher

Gwen finds them all in the kitchen finishing off breakfast when she finally returns inside. Nora has a half-empty mug of tea before her, and a half-smoked cigarette clamped between her fingers, its end bearing a ring of lipstick. Gwen passes no comment on the girl’s enhanced appearance.

‘It’s blowing cold now,’ she says, although she is unsure whether it is the weather or Ted’s words which have chilled her the most. ‘The weather’s definitely on the turn.’

‘It’ll be Christmas before you know it,’ Nora says, drawing on her cigarette.

‘Will it really? Will it be Christmas very soon?’ Tom bounces in his chair.

‘It will, Tom.’ Nora leans forward. ‘And what do you want Father Christmas to bring you?’

Gwen wishes Nora would not stir the boy up, though she is relieved that he appears to have forgotten her rash promise about the bicycle. Her pathetic haul of things to sell would not raise anywhere near the funds needed. She watches his eyes widen as he imagines what gifts will await him on Christmas morning and feels horribly inadequate. Helen Allingham’s words ring in her ears.

‘A train set!’ He has clearly given it much consideration and Gwen’s heart breaks that she will be unable to fulfil his wish. For the last few Christmases she has been able to use the war to explain why there is so little in his stocking, so little under the tree. With factories commandeered for the war effort, there was never much to be had in the way of toys and trinkets, and what there was had been prohibitively expensive – but what will her excuse be this Christmas? Factories will be returning to normal. Families will be celebrating in style, reunited in peace after years of conflict and separation. She has no doubt there will be plentiful riches beneath the Allinghams’ tree. There would be treasures in abundance for Tom there. She cannot bear to think of it. Instead, she gently sweeps his blond hair into a parting.

‘That’s a very big gift, Tom. Probably best to set your sights on something a little smaller.’

When she lifts her head, she finds Jack watching her. He looks away.

‘Right, we’d best get on,’ Nora says, shunting back her chair and stubbing out her cigarette in the ashtray. ‘Still planning to sow Mere Field today?’

‘Yes, yes that’s right. Beans.’

‘Can I come, Mummy?’

‘Perhaps not today, Tom. Stay with Muriel.’

‘But I don’t want to, I want to come.’

‘Tom, we’re in Mere Field and I can’t keep a close enough eye on you if I’m working.’

‘I promise I’ll stay away from the water.’

‘You promised that last time, remember?’

‘What happened last time?’