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Chapters (73)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Also by Anita Frank
  4. Note to Readers
  5. Dedication
  6. Part One
  7. Chapter One
  8. Chapter Two
  9. Chapter Three
  10. Chapter Four
  11. Chapter Five
  12. Chapter Six
  13. Chapter Seven
  14. Chapter Eight
  15. Chapter Nine
  16. Chapter Ten
  17. Chapter Eleven
  18. Chapter Twelve
  19. Chapter Thirteen
  20. Chapter Fourteen
  21. Chapter Fifteen
  22. Chapter Sixteen
  23. Chapter Seventeen
  24. Chapter Eighteen
  25. Chapter Nineteen
  26. Chapter Twenty
  27. Chapter Twenty-One
  28. Chapter Twenty-Two
  29. Chapter Twenty-Three
  30. Chapter Twenty-Four
  31. Chapter Twenty-Five
  32. Chapter Twenty-Six
  33. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  34. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  35. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  36. Chapter Thirty
  37. Chapter Thirty-One
  38. Chapter Thirty-Two
  39. Chapter Thirty-Three
  40. Chapter Thirty-Four
  41. Chapter Thirty-Five
  42. Chapter Thirty-Six
  43. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  44. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  45. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  46. Chapter Forty
  47. Part Two
  48. Chapter Forty-One
  49. Chapter Forty-Two
  50. Chapter Forty-Three
  51. Chapter Forty-Four
  52. Chapter Forty-Five
  53. Chapter Forty-Six
  54. Chapter Forty-Seven
  55. Chapter Forty-Eight
  56. Chapter Forty-Nine
  57. Chapter Fifty
  58. Chapter Fifty-One
  59. Chapter Fifty-Two
  60. Chapter Fifty-Three
  61. Chapter Fifty-Four
  62. Chapter Fifty-Five
  63. Chapter Fifty-Six
  64. Chapter Fifty-Seven
  65. Chapter Fifty-Eight
  66. Chapter Fifty-Nine
  67. Chapter Sixty
  68. Acknowledgements
  69. Extract
  70. Chapter One
  71. Chapter Two
  72. Chapter Three
  73. About the Publisher

Perhaps she can catch him. The thought flashes through her mind, reinvigorating her static body. Racing to the back door, she shoves on her gumboots and sprints along the path, leaping the steps. She lands with a jarring thud and runs on down the yard to the lane. She stops, breathless, just beyond the gate, spinning left to right. There is no sign of Jack. She has no idea which way he might have gone – she had shown no interest in his plans, she had thrown him out without so much as a goodbye. After what he has done for her, she cannot help but feel she has been handed her just desserts. It is all she can do to contain the scream of despair building inside her.

Defeated, she remains in the lane until her breathing has become sluggish and her heart as heavy as lead. She turns back to the yard, barely able to put one foot in front of the other, cursing her stupidity, wishing she had done so many things differently in her life. She wonders what she will say to Muriel.

The cows bellow in the holding pen, disgruntled with the slow progress of the milking. She needs to return to her duties; she needs to fabricate some story about Jack’s departure for Nora. Her insides clench as she wonders how to explain to Tom that his newly returned father has left already.

She spots Kip waiting expectantly outside the stable block door and her steps stutter as hope dares to flare in her chest. The dog’s head whips towards her. He emits a short whine then looks back towards the gaping door.

‘Jack …’

She hurries past and on to the straw-scattered cobbles inside. The air remains redolent with the musty scent of horses though the stalls all stand empty, with Bobby grazing in the paddock. The tack room door hangs ajar. Timidly, she pushes it wide.

Jack responds to the tell-tale creak of hinges, a leather roll of some kind caught in his hands. His kitbag is on the floor by the camp bed.

‘I left my tools behind last time I—’

‘I need you to stay.’

Her blurted confession takes him by surprise.

‘Please, Jack.’

Gwen moves to the window to gather her thoughts and form her appeal. Cobwebs matt the glass and in the corners hapless flies dangle in gossamer shrouds. The velvet curtains she made all those years ago hang limply from the sagging wire above, moth-eaten and damp, speckled with mildew and mould. She doesn’t dare to touch them – she fears they will crumble if she does.

‘Gordon Allingham came home,’ she says quietly. Jack does not utter a word and yet the air is alive with his presence. ‘He was injured, apparently … North Africa somewhere … he can’t have any more children.’ Steeling herself she turns to face him. ‘So, he wants Tom.’