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Chapters (73)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Also by Anita Frank
  4. Note to Readers
  5. Dedication
  6. Part One
  7. Chapter One
  8. Chapter Two
  9. Chapter Three
  10. Chapter Four
  11. Chapter Five
  12. Chapter Six
  13. Chapter Seven
  14. Chapter Eight
  15. Chapter Nine
  16. Chapter Ten
  17. Chapter Eleven
  18. Chapter Twelve
  19. Chapter Thirteen
  20. Chapter Fourteen
  21. Chapter Fifteen
  22. Chapter Sixteen
  23. Chapter Seventeen
  24. Chapter Eighteen
  25. Chapter Nineteen
  26. Chapter Twenty
  27. Chapter Twenty-One
  28. Chapter Twenty-Two
  29. Chapter Twenty-Three
  30. Chapter Twenty-Four
  31. Chapter Twenty-Five
  32. Chapter Twenty-Six
  33. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  34. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  35. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  36. Chapter Thirty
  37. Chapter Thirty-One
  38. Chapter Thirty-Two
  39. Chapter Thirty-Three
  40. Chapter Thirty-Four
  41. Chapter Thirty-Five
  42. Chapter Thirty-Six
  43. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  44. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  45. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  46. Chapter Forty
  47. Part Two
  48. Chapter Forty-One
  49. Chapter Forty-Two
  50. Chapter Forty-Three
  51. Chapter Forty-Four
  52. Chapter Forty-Five
  53. Chapter Forty-Six
  54. Chapter Forty-Seven
  55. Chapter Forty-Eight
  56. Chapter Forty-Nine
  57. Chapter Fifty
  58. Chapter Fifty-One
  59. Chapter Fifty-Two
  60. Chapter Fifty-Three
  61. Chapter Fifty-Four
  62. Chapter Fifty-Five
  63. Chapter Fifty-Six
  64. Chapter Fifty-Seven
  65. Chapter Fifty-Eight
  66. Chapter Fifty-Nine
  67. Chapter Sixty
  68. Acknowledgements
  69. Extract
  70. Chapter One
  71. Chapter Two
  72. Chapter Three
  73. About the Publisher

Jim is grim-faced and silent when he finally appears. He has barely spoken to either of them since the fateful day in the orchard when secrets dropped like windfall. That night, Gwen had gone straight to her room after dinner. Jack had intuitively known he would not be welcome in the sitting room, so instead, he had busied himself with chores – shutting in the chickens, feeding Kip, refilling the horses’ water troughs. When he was done, he returned to the stables, intending to take to his bed in the tack room. He had been surprised to find Jim waiting for him, nursing a tin mug that Jack knew immediately did not contain tea – the smell of whisky was too strong.

‘Muriel’s told me everything. I thought you should know that. So there’s no need for any pretence between us.’ His breath was ripe with tobacco and spirits.

Jack had shifted uneasily. ‘It makes no difference to me – I want you to know that. I’ve taken responsibility for the child and I won’t shirk it.’

Jim had merely huffed and nodded, clutching the chipped tin mug to his chest as he hovered in the doorway. ‘Looks like you’ve come to my girl’s rescue twice, lad.’

‘And I’ll happily keep coming,’ Jack replied softly, ‘for as long as she needs me. I promise you, Jim, anything I do will be done in Gwen’s best interests.’

In that moment, he had considered sharing with the farmer his plan and his promise not to come home, that Gwen would – when she chose – be free to love another, someone lucky enough to capture her heart. But Jim had stalked out on unsteady legs before he had a chance to explain his intent: to join the army and fight – not for his country per se, not even for his life, but for bettering her future. He would fight recklessly and without fear, knowing if he fell, she would benefit.

After what he had done, the life he had taken, it seemed a suitable penance.

Muriel is already waiting for them outside the church. They take their places in a row halfway down the aisle. Jim exchanges greetings with a few neighbours as they slip into their pews, but for the most part he keeps his eyes front and centre and his mouth grimly set.

Gwen unhooks her hassock and drops to her knees to offer a brief prayer. Jack remains seated beside her, though he bows his head to stare at his knotted fingers resting in his lap. The church is filling up. The places of worship he knew in Newcastle were vast affairs which afforded a degree of anonymity, but in this quaint village church, with its modest number of pews and narrow aisles, there is nowhere to hide.