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Chapters (46)
  1. The Man Who Loved Mata Hari
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. PART I: The Early Years
  5. Prologue
  6. Chapter One
  7. Chapter Two
  8. Chapter Three
  9. Chapter Four
  10. Chapter Five
  11. Chapter Six
  12. Chapter Seven
  13. PART II: The Middle Years
  14. Chapter Eight
  15. Chapter Nine
  16. Chapter Ten
  17. Chapter Eleven
  18. Chapter Twelve
  19. Chapter Thirteen
  20. Chapter Fourteen
  21. Chapter Fifteen
  22. Chapter Sixteen
  23. Chapter Seventeen
  24. Chapter Eighteen
  25. PART III: The War Years
  26. Chapter Nineteen
  27. Chapter Twenty
  28. Chapter Twenty-One
  29. Chapter Twenty-Two
  30. PART IV: The Last Year
  31. Chapter Twenty-Three
  32. Chapter Twenty-Four
  33. Chapter Twenty-Five
  34. Chapter Twenty-Six
  35. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  36. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  37. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  38. Chapter Thirty
  39. Chapter Thirty-One
  40. Chapter Thirty-Two
  41. Chapter Thirty-Three
  42. Chapter Thirty-Four
  43. Chapter Thirty-Five
  44. Montserrat
  45. Author’s Afterword
  46. Table of Contents

He left them where he had found them: planted side by side on the bench, Dunbar speaking softly, Southerland occasionally nodding. As he neared the park's edge Sykes appeared. His hands were jammed in the pockets of his sailor's coat. His restless eyes were fixed on something in the distance.

"All done?" His voice was vaguely unpleasant, thuggish.

"What do you want?"

Sykes grinned, his head cocked at an odd angle. "Just to take a look at your back."

"What?"

He pointed to the road ahead. "Watch your trail. Make sure the wolves haven't picked up your scent."

Gray turned, watching him. "Look, I don't know what the hell you're talking about."

Sykes took a step closer, a finger pointing to his eye. "Just keep walking down the road, eh?"

Nor was the remainder of that night any less disturbing, with voices through thin walls, footsteps in corridors, and the screech of passing trams. Berlin.

Eventually Dunbar would record that Gray spent most of the second day preparing himself for Spangler. He exercised to calm his nerves, Dunbar would write. He rested with music on the gramophone. He ate fish and drank nothing but tea and mineral water. He rehearsed his approach in front of a mirror.

None of this was true: all Dunbar's flourishes to make himself interesting.

Gray would mostly remember the fog. It rose at dawn, spilling over banks of the canals, gently colliding with a windborne mist. By noon the heart of the city was also fogbound, with an ascendant chill from the alleys and drains. The fog seemed appropriate, and welcome, obscuring and softening what he had no desire to confront.

There were some eight hours on that second day to waste before the evening, and Gray used them like a tourist. He tried a gallery filled with derivative etchings. He wandered into a church. He visited a national monument and watched children tossing pebbles in a fountain until a policeman appeared. He sat on a park bench with a flask of whisky. There were also moments when he found himself unreasonably hungry, and understood that it was nervous fear. And there were moments when he could not stop shivering from the cold, and knew that it was Zelle. As dusk began to fall he also found himself, willy-nilly, thinking about Spangler.

He took a long time to dress that evening: laying out his clothing in a kind of trance, half dozing in a bath with another whisky at his elbow, smoking three or four cigarettes while waiting for a taxi. He was, he reminded himself, doing this for Zelle.