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Chapters (46)
  1. The Man Who Loved Mata Hari
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. PART I: The Early Years
  5. Prologue
  6. Chapter One
  7. Chapter Two
  8. Chapter Three
  9. Chapter Four
  10. Chapter Five
  11. Chapter Six
  12. Chapter Seven
  13. PART II: The Middle Years
  14. Chapter Eight
  15. Chapter Nine
  16. Chapter Ten
  17. Chapter Eleven
  18. Chapter Twelve
  19. Chapter Thirteen
  20. Chapter Fourteen
  21. Chapter Fifteen
  22. Chapter Sixteen
  23. Chapter Seventeen
  24. Chapter Eighteen
  25. PART III: The War Years
  26. Chapter Nineteen
  27. Chapter Twenty
  28. Chapter Twenty-One
  29. Chapter Twenty-Two
  30. PART IV: The Last Year
  31. Chapter Twenty-Three
  32. Chapter Twenty-Four
  33. Chapter Twenty-Five
  34. Chapter Twenty-Six
  35. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  36. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  37. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  38. Chapter Thirty
  39. Chapter Thirty-One
  40. Chapter Thirty-Two
  41. Chapter Thirty-Three
  42. Chapter Thirty-Four
  43. Chapter Thirty-Five
  44. Montserrat
  45. Author’s Afterword
  46. Table of Contents

And finally the theme became suspicion. Bouchardon had gotten up from his chair and moved to the window. For a moment he appeared to be watching something below—a passing barge? A tree in the breeze? Wind breaking on water?

Then, rather dramatically—he was French, after all—spinning around to face her again: "Tell me how you felt when you first became aware that you were under suspicion of being a German spy?"

She felt her shoulders rising for another shrug, lips parting to say that she didn't understand. "How I felt?"

"Yes. How did you feel when you first learned that you were suspected of collaborating with the enemy?"

"I suppose I . . ." She shook her head.

"Well, come now. What was it? Anger? Fear? Anxiety? What?"

"Anxiety . . . ?"

"I'm sorry, I didn't hear that."

"I said anxiety."

"About what people would say? Friends and so forth?"

"Yes, I suppose so."

"So you were anxious about your social standing. You have just learned that you are suspected of being a spy, and you're anxious about your social standing." He turned back to the window, tapped a nail against the glass. "Be honest with me, madame. Wouldn't you agree that our river is far more beautiful than the Rhine?"

She looked at her hands. Somehow that handkerchief had knotted itself around her fingers like a tourniquet, leaving the joints white. "Please?"

"The river, madame. The Seine. Wouldn't you agree that it's far more beautiful than the Rhine?"

"Yes, oh yes . . ."

"Even at its worst, far more beautiful?"

"Yes."

Then suddenly turning again, voice rising: "Where do you think you are, madame? Just where in the world do you think you are?"

She watched his face blur through tears. "Here."

"That's right. You are here. Now, you say you were worried about your precious reputation when you realized that they thought you were a spy. And is that why you went to see von Kalle in Madrid? In order to save your reputation?"

She had managed to loosen the handkerchief from her fingers ... a small victory. "I had been advised that if I were to secure information on von Kalle it would end all the suspicion against me."

"And who exactly advised you of this? Martial Cazeaux?"

"Yes."

"So the consul in Vigo advised you that if you were to spy successfully on von Kalle, all official doubts concerning your loyalty to France would end. Now is that correct?"

"Yes."

"And you believed this man?"

"I had no reason not to . . ."

"What about your companion, Nicholas Gray? Did you not admit just the other day that he had had doubts about the consul's advice? Indeed, he had even tried to keep you from seeing von Kalle."

"I thought at the time that Nicholas had other reasons for wanting me to stay away from Madrid."

"So you ignored your companion Nicholas Gray, and proceeded to von Kalle on the consul's advice, correct?"

"Yes."