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Chapters (58)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. CHAPTER 1Typhoon ShelterYOU ASKED
  4. 1936–1937
  5. CHAPTER 2TUITION
  6. CHAPTER 3STEAMED FISH
  7. CHAPTER 4LETTERS ACROSS OCEANS
  8. CHAPTER 5MAKE A WISE DECISION
  9. CHAPTER 6Typhoon ShelterTHE TROUBLES OF CAPTAIN LEE
  10. CHAPTER 7ELOPE
  11. CHAPTER 8DINNER AT TAI HANG
  12. CHAPTER 9Typhoon ShelterTHE GEOMANTIC FATE OF WONG NAI CHUNG VILLAGE
  13. CHAPTER 10RESIDENT ROMEO AND JULIET
  14. CHAPTER 11THE WORLD OF EMILY MAH
  15. CHAPTER 12JOLLY GOOD FELLOW
  16. CHAPTER 13FRAMED
  17. CHAPTER 14Typhoon ShelterME AND TING-YAN
  18. CHAPTER 15MONKEY’S WEDDING
  19. CHAPTER 16NOT GOLDEN
  20. CHAPTER 17POSSESSED BY LAUGHTER
  21. CHAPTER 18CHEUNG’S NEW HOME
  22. CHAPTER 19GO-BETWEEN
  23. CHAPTER 20AN UNEXPECTED VISITOR
  24. CHAPTER 21A VISIT TO WONG NAI CHUNG VILLAGE
  25. CHAPTER 22CHILDHOOD HOME
  26. CHAPTER 23CHINESE WEDDING
  27. CHAPTER 24HORACE’S LEAP
  28. 1941
  29. CHAPTER 25STUFFED CRAB
  30. CHAPTER 26ST STEPHEN’S COLLEGE
  31. CHAPTER 27WHEN IS A FISH NOT A FISH?
  32. CHAPTER 28Typhoon ShelterTHE CHINESE COOPERATIVE COUNCIL
  33. CHAPTER 29STUBBORN
  34. CHAPTER 30LOOTED
  35. 1942
  36. CHAPTER 31NOMA WANTS A PARTY
  37. CHAPTER 32BURN THIS LETTER
  38. CHAPTER 33VERY PREGNANT
  39. CHAPTER 34GET OUT WHILE YOU CAN
  40. CHAPTER 35SCAR
  41. CHAPTER 36THE NEWS ABOUT TAK-TAM
  42. CHAPTER 37WHAT CHILD IS THIS?
  43. CHAPTER 38MOON AND STARS OVER SAI KUNG
  44. CHAPTER 39TIMELESS TEST MATCH
  45. CHAPTER 40A CUP OF SALT
  46. CHAPTER 41ENDGAME
  47. CHAPTER 42THIS FISH
  48. CHAPTER 43EMILY FLEES
  49. CHAPTER 44ESCAPE
  50. CHAPTER 45NOT A DREAM
  51. CHAPTER 46CHEUNG PLOTS REVENGE
  52. CHAPTER 47Typhoon ShelterLET’S GO HOME
  53. CHAPTER 48THE SEA AT NIGHT
  54. CHAPTER 49CARP’S EYE
  55. CHAPTER 50IN THE CHAPEL
  56. CHAPTER 51Typhoon ShelterTHE FINAL SECRET
  57. Acknowledgments
  58. Notes on Spelling, Transliteration, Naming, and Language
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The gasping fish on the pavement bucked.

“Don’t be an idiot,” she said. “It’s just how things are.”

Awful. But at least he was in the conversation now. “Don’t be so fatalistic. If you don’t love me, your father and mother will arrange for you to marry someone else.”

That got her. She was quiet for a moment. Then she said, “I’d rather marry you than anyone else.”

“But you don’t love me.”

“Is love necessary for marriage? It wasn’t for so many generations before us. You just got what you got, whether you wanted it or not. Besides, I do love you.”

“Not the way you love Tak-Wing.”

“I don’t love that dead dog anymore.”

“Don’t call my brother a dead dog.”

“He didn’t treat me very well.”

“You’re right. He didn’t.”

“Now there’s no one for me but you.”

He turned away from her. Did she not understand how she insulted him? The silence expanded painfully. “I don’t want to marry you,” he said. “Not like this.”

The fish on the pavement gave a mighty heave, but only succeeded in turning itself over.

“I thought you loved me,” she said.

“I do.”

“Maybe we should just get married and move on to the next stage of our lives. I think I’d be content, you know, once I got used to it. There’s just been so much going on lately. Honestly, I can’t imagine marrying anyone else but you.”

“That’s not the same as ‘I’ll love you ’til the end of time.’”

“It’s not. No. But I will love you ’til the end of time.”

“How can you say the same words and mean something so utterly different by them?”

“I’m sorry,” she said. “I’m trying my best.”

“There are different kinds of love.”

“Yes, that’s right. There are. Could you be content with the kind I have to offer you?” She was finally beginning to see the situation from his point of view and felt bad for him.

“I don’t know. All I wanted was for you to love me back. Which now you say you do. It should be enough.”

“Well,” she said, “I won’t force you to marry me if the kind of love I have to offer is not the kind you want. But I thought your love for me was the kind you’d feel no matter what.”

“It is.”

“Okay,” she said, “then, shall we give it a try?”

He reached up and took her hand. But then he let go of it. She reached down and took his hand. He pulled her toward him. She gazed into his brown eyes, so like her own. His lips brushed her cheek and found her mouth. The kiss was a nervy thing for a young man more accustomed to thinking and longing than seeing and acting. He was astonished by how soft she was. As the sun set down the western end of the harbour it poured a pale pink light over them, washing them clean of the day’s discomforts.