Chapters (50)
- Cover
- Praise
- Dedication
- Chapter One
- Chapter Two
- Chapter Three
- Chapter Four
- Chapter Five
- Chapter Six
- Chapter Seven
- Chapter Eight
- Chapter Nine
- Chapter Ten
- Chapter Eleven
- Chapter Twelve
- Chapter Thirteen
- Chapter Fourteen
- Chapter Fifteen
- Chapter Sixteen
- Chapter Seventeen
- Chapter Eighteen
- Chapter Nineteen
- Chapter Twenty
- Chapter Twenty-one
- Chapter Twenty-two
- Chapter Twenty-three
- Chapter Twenty-four
- Chapter Twenty-five
- Chapter Twenty-six
- Chapter Twenty-seven
- Chapter Twenty-eight
- Chapter Twenty-nine
- Chapter Thirty
- Chapter Thirty-one
- Chapter Thirty-two
- Chapter Thirty-three
- Chapter Thirty-four
- Chapter Thirty-five
- Chapter Thirty-six
- Chapter Thirty-seven
- Chapter Thirty-eight
- Chapter Thirty-nine
- Chapter Forty
- Chapter Forty-one
- Chapter Forty-two
- Epilogue
- Extract from Those Faraday Girls
- Acknowledgements
- About the Author
- Also by Monica McInerney
She’d never seen anyone as good-looking. Never heard such a voice, his Scottish accent smoothed to a musical polish courtesy of his boarding school education. His eyes were blue, sparkling.
Rory joined them soon after. Aged seventeen, he was the opposite to his brother in every way. Shy. Awkward. A bit goofy, even. It was as if Alex had received the quality ingredients and Rory was left with the offcuts.
‘Don’t get too interested, Eliza,’ Olivia warned her later. ‘Yes, Alex is charming, and popular too. Especially with the girls. It’s because he’s had lots of practice.’
His attention felt so genuine, though. She felt her heart beat faster whenever he appeared. He even joined her and Olivia one afternoon for a trip to the art gallery. She barely noticed the paintings.
Her feelings towards him became more fervent as her departure approached. She wanted to kiss him. Do more than kiss him. She kept recalling her mother’s advice. She was definitely ready. She wanted to make her first time something special, and yes, also be prepared. But how to make it happen?
She tried to get time alone with him, but it was impossible in a busy hotel. She wrote to him instead. She borrowed phrases she remembered from romantic fiction, about feeling dizzy and full of longing for him. She told him she was leaving soon, but it would make her so happy if he’d spend an afternoon or even longer with her? She fantasised constantly about it.
She knew he was having friends over. She slipped up to his room while they were downstairs and left the letter on his pillow, thrilled to be in his private space. She was relieved that she and Olivia were going to a play that night. She needed the distraction while she waited for his reply.
She was going downstairs to meet Olivia when an urge like a drug craving made her want to see him. He and his friends were in the back bar. She could hear laughter. Alex’s voice. She stood at the door, summoning the courage to say hello, meet his friends. She’d already pictured them all out together, Alex’s arm proudly and possessively around her. Then she stopped, and listened.
He was reading her letter out to his brother and his friends, in an exaggerated coarse Australian accent, overlaying it with swoons and gasps. They were all roaring with laughter, wolf-whistling too.
The door she was hiding behind squeaked. They all turned to see her standing there, bright red with shame. She was frozen for a moment, before she ran back up the stairs.
It wasn’t Alex who followed her. It was Rory. She started talking as soon as he caught up with her.
‘Don’t feel sorry for me. Please, don’t talk to me.’
‘Eliza, I’m sorry. He didn’t mean any harm. It was just —’