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Mama still wasn’t back by bedtime and I had eaten everything in the fridge and cupboards. Some things were very yukky, like the bowl of baked beans which I found in the fridge and ate cold because I was definitely not allowed to use the cooker because it was hot and could burn me. I ate some other cheese which was there and a yoghurt which tasted a bit fizzy like lemonade. I was still hungry but it was dark and probably bedtime so I got into bed and sang to Teddy until I fell asleep.
Next morning Mama still wasn’t there. I was so hungry that my tummy hurt and I had eaten all the food. Normally when we had no food, Mama would go to the shop. Because I had no food and Mama wasn’t here, I thought I should go to the shop and get some. But to go to the shop I needed money – Mama was always saying that everything in the shops cost too much money. But then I remembered – I did have some money! Sometimes when I was very good Mama would give me some coins to say thank you for being very good. They were small and brown and I kept them in a special jar.
I got dressed and tipped all the money out on to my bed. I didn’t know how to count so I didn’t know how much money there was, but it looked like a lot, so I thought I would be able to get plenty of food and wouldn’t need to be hungry any more. I put the money in my pockets – it took up a lot of room because there were a lot of coins – and then went to the kitchen to get a special shopping bag like Mama did when we went to the shops. I was excited about how proud of me she would be when she got back. She would be really pleased that I had gone to the shop and got some more food so that she wouldn’t have to go when she was so tired.
I went to the door but the handle was too high and I couldn’t reach it. So I got a chair to stand on and turned the handle. It was hard to turn the handle so I did it with two hands. But the door didn’t open. Sometimes there would be a key in a hole in the door which Mama turned to keep us safe at night and I looked to see if it was there so I could turn it but it wasn’t there and I didn’t know where it was and I couldn’t get out.