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  1. Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Copyright Page
  4. Contents
  5. Whatever Tomorrow Brings
  6. Copyright Page
  7. Dedication
  8. The Taylor and Donovan Families1871
  9. one
  10. two
  11. three
  12. four
  13. five
  14. six
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  27. nineteen
  28. twenty
  29. twenty-one
  30. twenty-two
  31. twenty-three
  32. twenty-four
  33. twenty-five
  34. twenty-six
  35. twenty-seven
  36. twenty-eight
  37. twenty-nine
  38. thirty
  39. thirty-one
  40. thirty-two
  41. thirty-three
  42. thirty-four
  43. thirty-five
  44. thirty-six
  45. thirty-seven
  46. thirty-eight
  47. thirty-nine
  48. forty
  49. forty-one
  50. forty-two
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  52. forty-four
  53. forty-five
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  56. forty-eight
  57. forty-nine
  58. fifty
  59. fifty-one
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  63. fifty-five
  64. fifty-six
  65. fifty-seven
  66. fifty-eight
  67. fifty-nine
  68. sixty
  69. sixty-one
  70. epilogue
  71. Dedication
  72. The Taylor and Donovan Families—1871
  73. Prologue
  74. one
  75. two
  76. three
  77. four
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  79. six
  80. seven
  81. eight
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  94. twenty-one
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  100. twenty-seven
  101. twenty-eight
  102. twenty-nine
  103. thirty
  104. thirty-one
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  106. thirty-three
  107. thirty-four
  108. thirty-five
  109. thirty-six
  110. thirty-seven
  111. thirty-eight
  112. thirty-nine
  113. forty
  114. forty-one
  115. forty-two
  116. forty-three
  117. forty-four
  118. epilogue
  119. Sean Donovan
  120. Copyright Page
  121. Dedication
  122. Visalia and Santa Rosa Families—1876
  123. one
  124. two
  125. three
  126. four
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  143. twenty-one
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  147. twenty-five
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  149. twenty-seven
  150. twenty-eight
  151. twenty-nine
  152. thirty
  153. thirty-one
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  155. thirty-three
  156. thirty-four
  157. thirty-five
  158. thirty-six
  159. thirty-seven
  160. thirty-eight
  161. thirty-nine
  162. forty
  163. forty-one
  164. forty-two
  165. forty-three
  166. forty-four
  167. forty-five
  168. forty-six
  169. forty-seven
  170. forty-eight
  171. forty-nine
  172. fifty
  173. fifty-one
  174. Epilogue
  175. Dedication
  176. Willits and Santa Rosa Families—1881
  177. Dear Marcail
  178. prologue
  179. one
  180. two
  181. three
  182. four
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  189. eleven
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  202. twenty-four
  203. twenty-five
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  205. twenty-seven
  206. twenty-eight
  207. twenty-nine
  208. thirty
  209. thirty-one
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  211. thirty-three
  212. thirty-four
  213. thirty-five
  214. thirty-six
  215. thirty-seven
  216. thirty-eight
  217. thirty-nine
  218. forty
  219. forty-one
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  221. forty-three
  222. forty-four
  223. forty-five
  224. forty-six
  225. forty-seven
  226. forty-eight
  227. forty-nine
  228. fifty
  229. fifty-one
  230. fifty-two
  231. fifty-three
  232. fifty-four
  233. fifty-five
  234. fifty-six
  235. fifty-seven
  236. fifty-eight
  237. fifty-nine
  238. sixty
  239. epilogue
  240. Books by Lori Wick
  241. About the Author

The word voluntarily hung between them. Alexs greatest desire was to lift Marcail in his arms and carry her to the bedroom. But just as he had waited for her admission of love, he also needed to give her time to desire their physical union. In his own mind, the two went hand in hand, but he realized that Marcail probably did not feel that way. He knew hed done the right thing when Marcail stepped from his arms.

Better now? he asked softly.

Yes, Alex. Thanks.

They moved of one accord then, back to their own beds. Marcail settled in quickly on the sofa, but sleep was miles away.

What did I do wrong? Did he not understand? Marcail didnt know when shed experienced such confusion. I think hes taking his cue from me as usual, but I dont know how to do this.

An image rose in Marcails mind of Alex taking her in his arms, and she knew real fear that swiftly turned to anger. After turning over uncomfortably on the sofa, she scolded herself.

Youre such a coward, Marcail. Afraid of everything including your own husband. When are you going to grow up? Marcail carried on in this vein for the better part of an hour without a single thought of sleep. She remembered much later than she should have that she needed to pray. She had barely said ten words to the Lord, when she realized she had to talk with Alex about the way she was feeling.

You know hell listen, she told herself as she rose from the bed. However, he might wish you had waited until morning. Marcail sat up on the edge of the sofa in a moment of indecision. When she finally moved soundlessly through the living room, she had decided on a plan.

The house was very dark, but Marcail moved with purpose toward the bedroom. The door was open, and she stopped on the threshold. Very softly, Marcail called Alexs name, knowing that if he was already asleep her voice wouldnt disturb him.

To Marcails surprise he stirred instantly. She peered through the darkness as he rustled around and lit the lamp on the bedstand. When the room was illumined in soft light, Marcail saw that Alex had come up to rest on one elbow to watch her in her simple, sleeveless nightgown with its deep V-neck and buttons down the front. Her own eyes went to Alexs bare chest above the sheet and then back to his eyes. After taking a deep breath, she spoke.

Katie told me a long time ago that when a man and woman are in love, there is nothing to fear. I seem to be struggling with believing her right now. I know I must seem like a child to you, but really I am afraid.