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Chapters (54)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Also by Fiona Collins
  4. Dedication
  5. CHAPTER 1
  6. CHAPTER 2
  7. CHAPTER 3
  8. CHAPTER 4
  9. CHAPTER 5
  10. CHAPTER 6
  11. CHAPTER 7
  12. CHAPTER 8
  13. CHAPTER 9
  14. CHAPTER 10
  15. CHAPTER 11
  16. CHAPTER 12
  17. CHAPTER 13
  18. CHAPTER 14
  19. CHAPTER 15
  20. CHAPTER 16
  21. CHAPTER 17
  22. CHAPTER 18
  23. CHAPTER 19
  24. CHAPTER 20
  25. CHAPTER 21
  26. CHAPTER 22
  27. CHAPTER 23
  28. CHAPTER 24
  29. CHAPTER 25
  30. CHAPTER 26
  31. CHAPTER 27
  32. CHAPTER 28
  33. CHAPTER 29
  34. CHAPTER 30
  35. CHAPTER 31
  36. CHAPTER 32
  37. CHAPTER 33
  38. CHAPTER 34
  39. CHAPTER 35
  40. CHAPTER 36
  41. CHAPTER 37
  42. CHAPTER 38
  43. CHAPTER 39
  44. CHAPTER 40
  45. CHAPTER 41
  46. CHAPTER 42
  47. CHAPTER 43
  48. CHAPTER 44
  49. CHAPTER 45
  50. CHAPTER 46
  51. CHAPTER 47
  52. Three Months Later
  53. Acknowledgements
  54. THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING

‘I’m OK,’ he says, and he stands there and he sighs and he smiles and I place my hand on his upper arm, slipping it under the hem of his T-shirt sleeve and I feel his firm, warm bicep. My lovely Dad.

‘Why have we wasted so much time, Prue?’ he says. ‘Sitting in that flat day after day, when all this life – all this beauty – was out here?’

‘I don’t know, Dad. But we’re out now, aren’t we? We’re here.’

‘Yes, we’re here.’

His hand is still on the pane of glass, as though he is drawing energy from it. He sighs again. ‘I’m scared, Prue.’

‘Why, Dad? Tell me why you are scared.’

‘I’m starting to forget.’

‘Forget …?’

‘What things look like, as I’ve been blind for so long. Objects, things, animals, shapes, even. Types of flowers. Colours. I can remember so many things – numbers of things, mainly, how many steps, things I’ve read, but some shapes now, some colours … I don’t remember how a ship’s mast looks. Or paintings by Monet. Or even clouds. Not really.’

‘Oh, Dad. I’m so sorry; I’m an idiot, I—’

‘It’s not your fault.’ He takes his hand from the glass. ‘Your descriptions are excellent, Prue. But when you say there’s a pigeon on the tube, I simply can’t remember what a “pigeon” looks like. It’s so strange, you know, to say the words but not see them in my head.’ He sighs. ‘For a long time I used to test myself every day. Go through a list of animals, say, in my head, one by one. Dog, cat, wolf, bear, rabbit, guinea pig, killer whale … I did it most days, for a long time. Then other days I forgot. And then I’d think, What was the point? Time is a killer, Prue – it is eroding my memory of all these things in life. Some of these animals don’t exist for me, now, or they blur into one. I don’t think I can see a difference in my head now between a dog and a wolf, for example.’

‘Does it matter, Dad, if you don’t know the difference?’ I say, but I know that it does. To him. ‘I could help you. I could describe those animals to you, explain the differences. Talk about lots of other things. Remind you.’

‘I suppose so. If we carried on going out, if we talked more …’

‘We can, Dad! We are doing that, aren’t we? We’re talking now.’

‘There’s so many things now, though. So many things I have forgotten.’

‘We could try, though. What else can we do but try?’