Chapters (40)
- Cover
- About the Author
- PENGUIN BOOKS
- Dedication
- One
- Two
- Three
- Four
- Five
- Six
- Seven
- Eight
- Nine
- Ten
- Eleven
- Twelve
- Thirteen
- Fourteen
- Fifteen
- Sixteen
- Seventeen
- Eighteen
- Nineteen
- Twenty
- Twenty-one
- Twenty-two
- Twenty-three
- Twenty-four
- Twenty-five
- Twenty-six
- Twenty-seven
- Twenty-eight
- Twenty-nine
- Thirty
- Thirty-one
- Thirty-two
- Thirty-three
- Thirty-four
- Thirty-five
- THE BEGINNING
Sasha nodded solemnly then put the end of her plait into her mouth and chewed it frantically. Clem picked the scab on her knee. Aggie wriggled off Irene’s lap and wandered over to the toy box, which she started to rummage through, tossing headless dolls and plastic shapes onto the floor. Irene persevered.
‘But sometimes adults decide they would do better living apart.’
But oh, she was doing this all wrong! She’d discussed it with Adrian, and later with Sarah, who worked with children at the hospital, and she’d rehearsed it silently to herself late last night. Adrian sat opposite her, his hands on his knees, and nodded inanely at every word. The scratch on his cheek had nearly disappeared.
‘I’m hungry,’ said Clem. ‘Starving.’
‘Hang on, Clemmie, we’re trying to tell you something.’
‘Starving to death, starving to death, starving to death,’ she chanted.
‘I will see you just as much as before,’ said Adrian, rubbing his knees as if there were grass stains on them.
‘Are you splitting up?’ said Sasha, still sucking her plait.
‘No!’ said Adrian at the same time as Irene said, ‘Well, yes …’
‘Doesn’t Daddy love you any more?’ said Clem. ‘Is he dumping you?’
‘Of course I love her! I’ll always love her.’ He gave a sickly smile but didn’t look in Irene’s direction. He couldn’t seem to meet her eyes after her nocturnal visit. He always looked up and then glanced off to her right, as if something intensely important was happening just beyond her. ‘But sometimes you love people and yet can’t live with them.’
‘We’ll always be friends,’ said Irene, boiling oil for blood.
‘Best friends?’ said Clem. ‘Don’t think so.’
Aggie hauled out a skipping rope and held it in a circle behind her. ‘One-two-three-ready-ready-GO,’ she yelled and flung it wildly over her head, lashing Clemmie on the cheek.
‘Owwwww!’
Irene hauled her onto her lap and kissed the red mark just to the side of her mouth. ‘Are you OK?’ she asked.
‘I hate you,’ Clem screamed at Aggie, who burst into tears. ‘You’re just a sissy little girl.’
‘Where will we live?’ asked Sasha, calm through the hubbub.
‘Oh,’ said Adrian, taken aback. ‘Here.’
‘Not half and half? That would be fairer.’
‘I’ll come and see you as much as I can,’ said Adrian. Tears welled up in his eyes.
‘I don’t mind sharing a room with Clem and Aggie at first.’
‘I bet it’s because of me,’ said Clem cheerily.
‘What?’
‘You said when I broke the window that you couldn’t stand it any more.’
‘No, no, no,’ said Irene frantically. ‘It’s not you. This is nothing to do with you. You have to believe us – this is something between us. It’s our fault.’ She stared at Adrian: your fault, your fault, your fault, her eyes said. He gazed down at the carpet.