Out I went, barely aware I was walking. I found myself standing at the window where I would later watch Leila. Unlike her, though, I wasn’t looking at my feet, but at a tree down below whose leaves were stirring in a breeze. I looked at its branches, black in the night, and wondered why anyone would ever want to throw a stone at a harmless little bird; and what its chances of survival would be.
A bird of a type I couldn’t identify flew over Bahr and me. The gravestones had finally petered out. We had yet to see another human.
11
ACCORDING TO PREFERENCE
“Dignity is the heaviest thing in a man,” Bahr said as we waited for the doctor whose name, according to Bahr, was Ashraf. We weren’t sitting in a waiting room, but in the cafeteria of a gas station by a highway on the outskirts of Cairo. “He’s nervous,” Bahr had told me. “He insisted we meet here.”
“Dignity!” he said again. “It weighs about eighty kilos. A little less, perhaps.”
He sipped at his coffee.