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  1. SILENCE IS MY MOTHER TONGUE
  2. SILENCE IS MY MOTHER TONGUE
  3. A Novel
  4. THE TRIAL
  5. THE ARRIVAL
  6. THE MOSQUE IN THE SAND
  7. THE EXPIRED SARDINES
  8. THE OPEN TOILET
  9. THE MIDWIFE
  10. THE TELEVISION
  11. THE BLOOD
  12. TV: LIBERATION OF A MAN
  13. THE NEW BLANKET
  14. THE SECOND-HAND CLOTHES
  15. DISGUST IS AN ACQUIRED TASTE
  16. RICE
  17. THE COMMITTEE OF ELDERS
  18. THE BUSINESSMAN
  19. MEN ARE EASY TO READ
  20. THE PROSTITUTE
  21. THE MOTHER’S NAME
  22. SHARING
  23. THE RAZOR
  24. WOMEN DYING LIKE MEN
  25. THE SHOP
  26. MEAT
  27. THE FIRST VIRGINITY TEST
  28. A WOMAN
  29. THE BROKEN LANGUAGE
  30. FREE LOVE, FENCED
  31. THE WHITE CLOTH
  32. THE DANCE
  33. THE GOAT
  34. CINEMA SILENZIOSO
  35. THE MAP OF THE COUNTRY
  36. THE WEDDING
  37. FREEDOM: THE DOUBLE PRICE
  38. LOVE SHARED
  39. THE DEPARTURE
  40. ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
  41. ABOUT THE AUTHOR

Nasnet’s tears fell. I am sorry, she said to Saba. Maybe I shouldn’t cry but I can’t help it.

Saba smiled. Come on now then, give me a bath.

Sometimes you are like a man, so forcibly charming, Nasnet blurted out.

Saba didn’t deny the comparison. That’s what the midwife has told me since I was a little girl. She thinks it is an insult.

They laughed again before Nasnet said, Come darling, let me wash you. I need to get ready for work.

Do you hate the midwife? Saba asked.

Why would I? Nasnet said, now washing the soap out of Saba’s hair.

She gave away your secret, Saba said.

White froth rolled down her chest.

I didn’t choose for my job to be a secret, Nasnet said. It’s ironic, though. Society makes it so and then they try to oust you and ostracize you for the secret they have demanded and imposed in the first place.

Saba’s eyes met Nasnet’s. What, Nasnet said, you didn’t expect a prostitute to talk like this?

Saba smiled.

I love those dimples, Nasnet said, pinching Saba’s cheek.

After cleaning Saba’s back, Nasnet passed the soap to Saba. Here, you do the rest, she said, sitting on her bed.

Did you do that because of your job? Saba asked Nasnet, pointing to the three patterned lines made of small cone shapes tattooed across Nasnet’s neck.

No, I did this when I was seven. I saw the daughter of a rich landowner wearing a beautiful necklace, and asked my mother if I could have one too. My mother couldn’t afford it, but a friend of hers suggested a tattoo on my neck instead. For days, I refused to accept my mother’s proposal. I thought she didn’t love me if she wouldn’t even buy me a simple necklace. But my mother’s friend told me that the Queen of Sheba had a tattoo even though she could buy anything she wanted, so I finally accepted. Besides, I told myself then, a tattoo necklace would never break or get lost.

Nasnet paused and, craning her head backwards, she asked: Do you like it?

Saba nodded: It makes you look special. It goes well with the clothes you have.

Both laughed. Nasnet more so. Saba watched her laughter again, as if hoping to learn from it, and embrace it.

Saba stood, her feet still in the water, her shadow on the wall of Nasnet’s hut rising with her, the reflection of her nipples shifting with the flickering of the oil lamp. And when she was about to leave Nasnet’s hut, smelling of coconut cream, Nasnet hugged her. With their cheeks still touching, Saba whispered a thank you.

Saba, Nasnet said. You know this is a camp. People are generous with what they have in the hope they will get something they don’t. So if you want to borrow some privacy, I can lend you my hut. You can come any time.

Saba looked at the bed with the thick mattress and blue cover. She imagined the men in this bed, imagined Nasnet under them. Nasnet turned Saba’s head away. As if she could read her eyes, Nasnet said: Luckily, I don’t break easily. And I feel you are someone who doesn’t either.