Chapters (148)
- Cover
- Dedication
- Saturday, 16 June 2018
- Twelve Years Earlier, 7 July 2006
- 2
- 3
- Sunday, 17 June 2018
- 2
- 3
- Twelve Years Earlier, 7 July 2006: Evening
- 2
- 3
- 4
- 5
- Twelve Years Earlier, 7 July 2006: Evening
- 2
- Monday, 18 June 2018
- 2
- 3
- 4
- Twelve Years Earlier, 9 July 2006
- 2
- 3
- 4
- Twelve Years Earlier, 9 July 2006
- 2
- 3
- 4
- Twelve Years Earlier, 9 July 2006: Evening
- Tuesday, 19 June 2018
- 2
- 3
- 4
- Twelve Years Earlier, 29 July 2006
- 2
- 3
- 4
- 5
- 6
- Twelve Years Earlier, 30 July 2006
- 2
- 3
- Twelve Years Earlier, 31 July 2006
- 2
- 3
- 4
- 5
- 6
- 7
- Wednesday, 20 June 2018
- 2
- 3
- 4
- Eleven Years Earlier: Sunday Morning, 1 July 2007
- 2
- 3
- 4
- Eleven Years Earlier: Sunday Morning, 1 July 2007:
- 2
- 3
- 4
- 5
- Thursday, 21 June 2018
- 2
- 3
- Eight Years Earlier: Friday, 18 June 2010
- 2
- 3
- 4
- 5
- 6
- 7
- 8
- 9
- Eight Years Earlier: Sunday, 27 June 2010
- 2
- 3
- Eight Years Earlier: Thursday, 1 July 2010
- Eight Years Earlier: Thursday, 1 July 2010
- 2
- Eight Years Earlier: Wednesday, 18 August 2010
- 2
- Friday, 22 June 2018
- 2
- 3
- 4
- Four Years Earlier: July 2014
- 2
- 3
- 4
- Four Years Earlier: July 2014
- 2
- 3
- 4
- 5
- Four Years Earlier: July 2014
- 2
- Four Years Earlier: July 2014
- 2
- 3
- Four Years Earlier: July 2014
- 2
- Four Years Earlier: July 2014
- Four Years Earlier: July 2014
- Saturday, 23 June 2018
- 2
- 3
- Saturday, 23 June 2018
- 2
- 3
- Martin
- DI Wynne
- Sandra
- Maggie
- 2
- Martin
- Maggie
- James
- Maggie
- DI Wynne
- Martin
- Wynne
- Martin
- Wynne
- Martin
- Wynne
- Martin
- Wynne
- Sandra
- Wynne
- Martin
- James
- Wynne
- Saturday, 23 June 2018
- Wynne
- PC Oliver Reid
- Maggie
- PC Oliver Reid
- Maggie
- Maggie
- Maggie
- Martin
- Epilogue
- Keep Reading …
- Acknowledgements
- About the Author
- Also by Alex Lake
- About the Publisher
The man hadn’t said that, but he didn’t need to. It was implicit in his refusal. He rarely gave her anything. It was only after weeks of begging when Seb was born that he’d brought a box of Lego, the large ones for little kids. Duplo, they were called. There weren’t many, but Max – as Seb had – loved them. He played with them for hours, arranging them into towers and arches and walls. Once he had made a rectangle filled with odd-shaped objects and Maggie had asked him what it was.
Our house, he replied. Look. That’s the bath. That’s you and me. That’s the bed.
She had to bite back the tears. Other kids were building space rockets or gardens or trains. Max was building the only thing he knew.
This shitty prison.
And so she took him places in his imagination, described the blue of the sea by pointing to his blue socks, but told him the sea was a different blue, a brilliant blue, a beautiful shining blue, words that he didn’t understand but which reminded her of the world out there, of what she too was missing. She explained the coolness of the breeze by moistening his forehead and blowing on it, and the warmth of the sun by rubbing her hands until they were hot and placing them on his chest. All of it was a pale imitation of the real thing, but it was all she had.
She didn’t stop there; she told stories of magical palaces and boats and rivers where Max and she had wild adventures. Along the way they met heroic people with the names Grandpa Martin and Grandma Sandra and Uncle James and Aunty Anne and Chrissie and Fern. She told him how Chrissie was brave and loyal but could be grumpy and Fern was funny and clever but left things wherever she went. She told him how Uncle James was kind of grumpy but sweet and well-meaning, and how Aunty Anne was wise and Grandpa and Grandma were kind and loving, and how they loved him in particular. The stories ended with huge parties where there was every kind of food and all the toys a boy could wish for. She wondered what Max thought chocolate and jelly beans and burgers and milkshakes tasted like. She wondered whether he would ever find out.
She sat on the mattress and watched him play with the Duplo. Behind him, by the door, were two plates. Max had left half of the mashed potato and baked beans the man had brought; Maggie had barely touched hers.
‘OK, Max,’ she said. ‘Time for our exercises.’