Back Scabby Queen
Chapters (43)
  1. Cover
  2. SCABBY QUEEN
  3. Dedication
  4. Epigraph
  5. SOME PEOPLE
  6. Q Magazine, June 1990
  7. RUTH
  8. Clio Campbell
  9. NEIL
  10. DONALD
  11. Guardian Weekend magazine, August 2010
  12. SAMMI
  13. SIMON
  14. NEIL
  15. Daily Mail, October 2016
  16. HAMZA
  17. XANTHE
  18. DONALD
  19. Q Magazine, September 2007
  20. RUTH
  21. DANNY
  22. SAMMI
  23. NEIL
  24. BBC Radio Scotland, 24 January 2018
  25. DONALD
  26. MALCOLM
  27. SAMMI
  28. Loaded, February 1996
  29. SHIV
  30. IDA
  31. Scotland on Sunday, September 2013
  32. DONALD
  33. HAMZA
  34. SAMMI
  35. ADELE
  36. NEIL
  37. The Pool, February 2018
  38. RUTH
  39. DONALD
  40. EILEEN
  41. ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
  42. About the Author
  43. About the Publisher

‘Did you come here to accuse me, Clio? Did you buy me a bottle of wine and take me away from my evening plans just to tell me my failings? Did you get on a ferry and pay for four days practising a discipline you’re not very interested in just to have it all out with me?’

‘I’m sorry. I’m sorry. That wasn’t what I meant. You know what? I might be jealous, pal. I’m seeing you here, in a place where you’re so obviously meant to be. Seeing the peace inside you. I’ve never had that. I’ve never had a time in my life where I’ve felt as much part of something as you seem to be, just looking at you against this landscape right here.’

And for a while, their conversation wound itself around the island – around the day-to-day beat of Xanthe’s life, around Dido’s studies in Athens and Xanthe’s hopes and fears for her; around Clio’s recent heartbreak, a younger man who had left her to be a pop star, or so it seemed. The usual ways a conversation between old acquaintances would flow. But the hidden odour kept drifting to the surface. Clio wanted to talk about the case. Of course she did.

‘I mean, we all fucked him, didn’t we. You did. I know Fran did even though she likes girls. I mean, that’s why – I absolutely understand that the crime against Sammi was the greatest, but I still felt a real sense of violation, which is why I thought I’d really push that way. You know, I could do more, with my profile. I was able to protect Sammi a bit. Take the heat off her, if they all focused on me. That’s what I thought. But still, all of us, we need to process this, don’t we. I mean, the guys were betrayed too, don’t get me wrong, but he was only using them on the one level, know what I mean. It’s rape. We were all raped, because none of us consented to have sex with that man, and I wish we’d been smarter about it, you know – I wish we’d had a bit more something on our side. You know, one of those big amped-up lawyers. The expensive ones. We could have got him that way. It’s a shame – there was nobody with any real buying power on our side.’

Oh whatever could you be getting at, thought Xanthe.