Back Scabby Queen
Chapters (43)
  1. Cover
  2. SCABBY QUEEN
  3. Dedication
  4. Epigraph
  5. SOME PEOPLE
  6. Q Magazine, June 1990
  7. RUTH
  8. Clio Campbell
  9. NEIL
  10. DONALD
  11. Guardian Weekend magazine, August 2010
  12. SAMMI
  13. SIMON
  14. NEIL
  15. Daily Mail, October 2016
  16. HAMZA
  17. XANTHE
  18. DONALD
  19. Q Magazine, September 2007
  20. RUTH
  21. DANNY
  22. SAMMI
  23. NEIL
  24. BBC Radio Scotland, 24 January 2018
  25. DONALD
  26. MALCOLM
  27. SAMMI
  28. Loaded, February 1996
  29. SHIV
  30. IDA
  31. Scotland on Sunday, September 2013
  32. DONALD
  33. HAMZA
  34. SAMMI
  35. ADELE
  36. NEIL
  37. The Pool, February 2018
  38. RUTH
  39. DONALD
  40. EILEEN
  41. ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
  42. About the Author
  43. About the Publisher

He thought that was an end to it. He himself had completely forgotten it all. And then, seven years later, three days after Clio died, he’d been sleeping on Calvin’s couch when the phone tucked under the pillow blared at him, startling him into the morning light. It was difficult to make out what Gemma was saying at first, through the tears, the shuddering snotty breath. She’d taken Snoop out at six in the morning for his usual walk, the streets quiet, the same route they always took. Suddenly he’d broken his lead and run across the road (‘like he was possessed or something’) just at the point a speeding red sports car had rounded the corner.

‘And – and – and I was thinking, I was thinking, babe, what if this is Clio? What if it’s her curse? Finally happening, now that she’s dead?’

He got an Uber straight back home, wrapped his arms round her, told her over and over, there’s no curse, there’s no such thing as curses. They mourned their dog together, their previous divisions evaporated, any confusion he was feeling over Clio lost under this more immediate, more pressing grief. Gemma had got pregnant almost immediately afterwards, through two different modes of contraception, as though the huge wave of emotion Snoop left behind him had demanded something to fill it. Two weeks after they’d done the test and before they’d been able to let him know, Hamza’s father had a sudden heart attack, just sitting there at the breakfast table, unable to get his last words out to his wife.

Gemma kept herself small and quiet during this time, and Hamza tried, awkwardly, when he remembered, not to shutter himself off from her. She was paranoid about the baby from the start, wouldn’t let him fuck her even when all he needed was just to stretch out into his woman and roar and sublimate some of this loss into something physical. Nothing seemed calm any more, nothing he knew was the same. The dog’s basket still sat there in the hallway, its emptiness eyeing him sadly whenever he tried to leave the house.

Eventually, Gemma broke. He came in from his mum’s one afternoon to find her in tears at the table, having just been made redundant.

‘They can’t do that to a pregnant woman!’

‘Yeah, but they don’t know I’m pregnant, do they? Wasn’t going to tell them for three weeks yet.’

‘Fucksake, man. Who the hell is doing this to us?’

‘Listen, Za. Bear with me here. What if – what if Clio did curse us? What if there’s something in that after all?’

‘Gem. Come on. What, she just leaves us alone for seven years then only comes after us once she’s dead?’