Contents ( 50)
- CONTENTS
- PROLOGUE
- CHAPTER ONE
- CHAPTER TWO
- CHAPTER THREE
- CHAPTER FOUR
- CHAPTER FIVE
- CHAPTER SIX
- CHAPTER SEVEN
- CHAPTER EIGHT
- CHAPTER NINE
- CHAPTER TEN
- CHAPTER ELEVEN
- CHAPTER TWELVE
- CHAPTER THIRTEEN
- CHAPTER FOURTEEN
- CHAPTER FIFTEEN
- CHAPTER SIXTEEN
- CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
- CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
- CHAPTER NINETEEN
- CHAPTER TWENTY
- CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
- CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
- CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
- CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
- CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
- CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
- CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
- CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
- CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
- CHAPTER THIRTY
- CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
- CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
- CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
- CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
- CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
- CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
- CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
- CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
- CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
- CHAPTER FORTY
- CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
- CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
- CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
- CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
- EPILOGUE
- ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
- Also by Liz Flanagan:
- COPYRIGHT
It was like the night watchman Gabriel had said: Joe’s parents would be better off if he were dead. And now he was. That would be his gift to them. Until he had become someone his parents could be proud of, he would stay dead.
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CHAPTER TEN
Joe and Winter fell into a kind of rhythm. Winter would bring food: simple, but good – cheese, bread, sardines, pears. Joe ate and slept, recovering slowly. When he woke, sometimes Winter was there, changing the bandages on his burned hands, keeping his head injury clean. More often, he was alone. He had no idea how many days passed: night and day were the same in this cave. He lost great swathes of time to strange unquiet sleep. Sometimes he woke up screaming and beating at himself, thinking he was on fire. Slowly, slowly, he let his old life slip away, grieving for it in dreams and nightmares.
Finally, one day, he found he could stand without swaying. His shoulder would take longer to heal. In the end, Winter tied his arm in a sling, and Joe tried to forget about it, focusing on walking further down the corridor each day, determined to get better, till he could even tackle the steps: one by one. The top still seemed very far away. 71
Even when she was there, Winter didn’t like to talk for long, Joe realised. She could manage a short sentence or three before she got that hunted look and she’d need to fly away.
Joe’s questions multiplied in the hours of solitude. He planned his words carefully in the spaces when he was alone, polishing them into small shiny nuggets to be ready for Winter’s return.
‘Do you know all the tunnels?’ he asked.
‘Not yet. Exploring slowly,’ she explained. ‘Didn’t want to get lost.’
‘How far do they go?’
‘Far.’
‘What are they for?’
She shrugged. ‘Escaping.’
Did she mean them, or someone else? Joe wanted to ask more, but she was already eyeing the passageway and getting up to leave.
One day, he was very bored, and his head was itching terribly. He decided to explore, but his legs collapsed halfway up the nearest flight of stone steps. Joe crawled back to the cave just as Winter arrived. He was ready to scream with pain and frustration. He heaved himself into the cave, slumped against a wall and put both hands over his mouth so he couldn’t let out his anger. It was like fire. And like fire, he had to control it, or contain it. Otherwise it would destroy him and damage others. This was his new start and he would not wreck it. He breathed in and out till he was sure he could speak without raging against the pain. 72
Winter just stood there looking at him in her quiet way.
Suddenly he needed to know more about her too. What did she want? What did she do? She’d seen his worst moment, on his birthday, and yet she’d still helped him.