Contents ( 50)
- CONTENTS
- PROLOGUE
- CHAPTER ONE
- CHAPTER TWO
- CHAPTER THREE
- CHAPTER FOUR
- CHAPTER FIVE
- CHAPTER SIX
- CHAPTER SEVEN
- CHAPTER EIGHT
- CHAPTER NINE
- CHAPTER TEN
- CHAPTER ELEVEN
- CHAPTER TWELVE
- CHAPTER THIRTEEN
- CHAPTER FOURTEEN
- CHAPTER FIFTEEN
- CHAPTER SIXTEEN
- CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
- CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
- CHAPTER NINETEEN
- CHAPTER TWENTY
- CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
- CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
- CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
- CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
- CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
- CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
- CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
- CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
- CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
- CHAPTER THIRTY
- CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
- CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
- CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
- CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
- CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
- CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
- CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
- CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
- CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
- CHAPTER FORTY
- CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
- CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
- CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
- CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
- EPILOGUE
- ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
- Also by Liz Flanagan:
- COPYRIGHT
He couldn’t hear the next mumbled words as the men moved away, but he heard the final part all right.
‘He’d be dead if it weren’t for the Lady Milla. Maybe it’d be better for his folks if he were.’ Gabriel spoke Joe’s worst fears out loud.
He stopped breathing.
Is that what people thought?
Hearing it in someone else’s voice made it true and real 47in a way that sliced right through him. It would be better if he were dead.
In one day, his whole life had burned away, leaving nothing but ash and disappointment behind. Not caring who saw him now, Joe fled from his parents’ home, knowing he’d never be able to return.
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CHAPTER SEVEN
Joe was never quite sure what happened next. If he’d been burning with anger at the ceremony, now he was left frozen and numb with shock, blundering through a nightmare. Strong winds brought sheeting rain. Later, he’d see the bruises and scrapes, his clothes ripped and soaked in mud, so he must have run, climbed, fallen. He vaguely recalled his hellish tour of the harbour in the pouring rain, begging each captain in turn for passage off the island. Two things made that impossible: he had no money, and each sailor took one glance at him and knew he was Nestan’s son. They told him to go home and tell his parents he was safe. Their voices weren’t angry, but their eyes told another story: distant and disappointed, they wanted nothing to do with him.
He was trapped.
His life on the island was over, but he couldn’t leave.
Again, he ran.
As dawn broke, he came to himself, like waking from a 49bad dream. He was standing on a grassy ledge on the north-west clifftops of Arcosi, alone.
A gusty wind blew, spattering his face with raindrops in a way that felt personal. The sky was mottled grey and full of moisture. He looked down: far, far below him, the jagged rocks gave way to deep water. From here it appeared blackish-blue, and very cold.
He stared down again and imagined a way out. He was already so overwhelmed by his shame that the idea of being free of it, even like this, seemed appealing.
He’d have to leap out, to be sure. He wanted it to be quick. He tried to imagine the pain, but he found it was impossible.
He shivered. He didn’t really want to die – he just wanted to start again, be someone else. Someone better.
What took more courage? To live or to die? He couldn’t tell any more. He was so tired.
He closed his eyes, gathering himself.
Just then, the sun heaved itself over the horizon into a narrow gap between clouds. Joe felt the light change. Behind his eyelids, the world turned deep purple, the purple of his dreams.
The purple of the dragon he didn’t have.
It wasn’t painful. It was comforting.