Back Right after the Weather
Chapters (46)
  1. Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Dedication
  4. Epigraph
  5. desk
  6. warrior two
  7. palate cleanser
  8. base camp
  9. the scary hand
  10. femininitea
  11. a very bad day
  12. duck egg
  13. excursion
  14. at ease
  15. pleasant travel
  16. shrimp platter
  17. mulberry street
  18. marienbad
  19. puebla
  20. visitors
  21. yule log
  22. machine burgers
  23. crosswinds
  24. night shift
  25. bludout
  26. breathing room
  27. auld acquaintance
  28. moonachie
  29. tiles
  30. girls kissing
  31. long-term dating
  32. apocalypse beach
  33. hypothermia
  34. flat white
  35. martinis
  36. polka favorites
  37. pussy hat
  38. two-flat
  39. symphony
  40. isle of mull
  41. opening night
  42. erasure
  43. vue du lac
  44. acknowledgments
  45. Reading Group Guide
  46. about the author

This is a rare piece of domestic revelation, that Dana’s house would be vacant enough tonight for Cate to pay a visit. Cate waits a beat for that invitation, which doesn’t come. Cate has never been inside Dana’s house. She knows where it is and what it looks like only from Google Street View.

“You can’t come by my place. Graham’s split up with Eleanor. He’s staying with me for a while. He would definitely notice your arrival. Then he’d put together an intervention. The kind where guys in black burst in and put a bag over my head and take me by my arms and haul me away. Until I come to my senses.” She pauses, then, a little too late, remembers Maureen. “Plus I’m seeing someone.”

“Yeah,” Dana says, dismissing this as an irrelevant detail, getting back to logistics. “Then what about Blackhawk?” Cate’s workshop.

“The problem isn’t locational, it’s that I don’t want to wreck any more of my life being in stupid, tormented love with you.” Cate enjoys hearing how confident she sounds. Also how she can finally look straight into Dana’s eyes (unfortunately fascinating chasms, they’re the green of the flesh of a lime) as she says this. But they both know that, caught in a weak moment, maybe even the next time Dana shows up wherever, Cate’s better judgment could crumble and wind her up on the movers’ blanket thrown onto the big table at the workshop—fucking. Then, worse—crying. Mercifully, Cate’s phone hisses in her pocket. She pulls it out and puts the duck egg in. A text from Maureen.

can u c me?

followed by a string of question marks and emojis of puckered lips. Maureen is deft, sometimes even ironic, with emojis. They may be the language in which she was born to write. At first Cate takes this message to mean Maureen is asking if she is free to meet up, then understands it means she is here, at the beach. Cate left her a voice mail earlier saying she was so depressed about the election. She thought Maureen would just call back, but apparently she has instead shown up. Cate looks around until she spots her, standing atop the rocks above the beach, waving, smiling. Impressive timing.

“That’s her?” Dana says, peering in Maureen’s direction. “Okay. Right.”

Cate doesn’t know what Dana can be dismissing from a hundred feet off, but it’s a conversation she hasn’t time for. She pulls up her hood, clears her throat, and starts walking. She half-turns once, to hold a hand up to Dana. A waveless good-bye. As though they are just a couple of regulars at the dog beach. Sailor follows Cate. When they get up to the patch of grass that overlooks the beach, he ambles off a little way.

“Hey,” Cate says.

“One of your beach buddies?” Maureen says.