I am seeing the trailer and the four soldier guarding it, then my mind is emptying, and when I am waking up again, I am waking up covered in blood, and arm and leg and head is covering the grass like rubbish. I am not taking time to think about what happen or why I am covered in blood and there are no more soldier just pieces of them. I am just breaking the lock to the trailer with my elbow and hurrying inside and feeling the fresh cool air of the inside and closing my eyes because it is like feeling Xifeng whenever she is holding me during my epileptic shaking.

I am sitting on metal floor and hugging my knees to my chest and blood is on my face and my fingers and covering my knees, and my fingers are slipping on my pants where they are holding them but I am sitting and rocking back and forth and closing my eyes and thinking of Xifeng and thinking it is being long long time since I am hearing her voice.

When I am opening my eyes again, I am seeing around me stack and stack of hard drives.

I am not sure how I am knowing but I am knowing that police or soldier or both is going to destroy all of this and I must save it. So I am taking cord from my neck and putting it in hard drive after hard drive and downloading the rememberings so that they are pouring like water into my brain. My brain is never filling, but I am sometime hearing voice many voice and sometime if I am closing my eye I am feeling sand between my toes or I am feeling big leaf SWISH SWISH on my face or I am putting my lips to lips of other girl or I am riding on the shoulder of man I am calling father.

My eyes are opening fast fast when I hear voice outside.

There is window and I am wiping it but it is making blood on it so I am using shirt and wiping blood and dust off window, and I am seeing far away soldier bringing out children who is looking like me and making them to fall on their knee and is lining them up. And these children are having collar around their neck and having restraint over their hands and their forearm. And I am looking closely and my mind is scanning them without me telling it to and I am seeing that they are having outlet like me at the back of their neck. And I am seeing under their skin that their bones glow blue like mine when I am looking inside myself sometime.

Soldier behind them is raising their gun at the back of the child head and not waiting a moment or even speaking before pulling trigger and all of the child are falling dead.