I am feeling hand pressing on my shoulder. Gently but still firm, like it is trying to be telling me something, and I am looking up and seeing Ify and she is not looking at me. She is looking ahead. But she is squeezing my shoulder.

“Don’t be nervous,” she is whispering to me, beneath her breath, almost like she is saying it to herself too.

It is making me to be feeling better to be seeing her like this. The way she is moving and standing and holding herself is telling me she is feeling certain and comfortable and she is not being afraid of anything.

Soon, we are going into part of hospital where there is being fewer and fewer people. And soon we are getting to part of hospital where there is being no one but doctor and nurse and sometime droid that is helping them. Then she is bringing me into room that is large but not as large as main room in Ify’s apartment. In the center is being a machine that is part bed but part cylinder that the bed is going into. And there is a console next to it and a desk and many machine I am not knowing.

There is white wall surrounding me everywhere and there is much space to be walking around in and very little furniture. But even though it is looking like there is much space, it is still feeling like prison. The walls are meeting over my head to form dome shape so it is looking like I am inside a bulubu ball that is being cut in half.

Feeling is warring inside me, and I am not knowing why but my heart is racing racing and when I am standing, I am moving from feet to feet, just bouncing like child that is needing to go to the bathroom. I am nervous. Then I am hearing Ify’s words in my head, replaying, and she is saying, Don’t be nervous, don’t be nervous, don’t be nervous.

“This is where we will work,” Ify is telling me. “This will be your bed, and I will make it as comfortable as possible for you. All you will have to do is lie there. And we will take breaks whenever you need.” Grace is in the room too, and she is moving to stand beside Ify, and she is holding a tablet in her hands. At first, she is saying nothing, and I am wondering if it is like this between them in space, where Ify is leading and Grace is following. But there is different energy in the air between them. They are moving like people who have spent much time together, not like leader and follower but like equal. Like how synth and soldier is working together when Xifeng is leading us. “Grace and I are here for whatever you need.”