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Chapters (34)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. FLATHEAD INDIAN RESERVATION
  4. Louise and Yellow Knife THE OLD MARRIAGE
  5. Charlie Kicking Woman THE BITE
  6. Jules Bart and Louise THE COWBOY
  7. Charlie Kicking Woman THE HARD TRUTHS
  8. Louise YEARS OF SUMMER
  9. Louise THE FALLING PLACE
  10. Officer Kicking Woman HERE
  11. Louise AT LONG LAST HOME
  12. Louise THE BURNING FIELDS
  13. Charlie Kicking Woman AFTER THE FIRE
  14. Baptiste and Louise THE POWER OF MARRIAGE
  15. Louise ROADS
  16. Charlie Kicking Woman POWWOW
  17. Louise BLIND SPOT
  18. Charlie Kicking Woman CHASING THE DREAM
  19. Louise HEADING HOME
  20. Charlie Kicking Woman THE STILL RIVER PLACE
  21. Louise THE LONG LENGTH OF DAY
  22. Charlie Kicking Woman DUTIES
  23. Louise DEAD SIGHT
  24. Charlie Kicking Woman RESERVATION DEATH
  25. Louise THE LONG HUNGER
  26. Charlie Kicking Woman TROUBLE
  27. Louise OLD GHOSTS
  28. Charlie Kicking Woman SEEING
  29. Louise GOING HOME
  30. Charlie Kicking Woman BAD ROADS MILEPOST MARKER 104
  31. Baptiste Yellow Knife GIFTS
  32. Louise Yellow Knife RETURNING
  33. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  34. About the Author

I was surprised that the door to where Annie lay was glossy and I could see my face on its smooth surface, and I looked like the intruder I was. The body was on the floor. I didn’t know Louise was in the room. She must have hidden behind the door as I entered. I saw Annie’s feet first, small and shoeless. Her feet gleamed like polished wood. A rough blanket was pulled up to her chin. I could feel the prickle of heat in my armpits, a heat flushed my neck as I bent over her. I tried to pick her up, bending from the waist, but I couldn’t pull her to me. I knelt on the homemade bed, heard the dry rustle of cattails beneath my knees. As I was lifting her up from the floor the blanket slipped from her. She was naked. I scrambled to reach the blanket but was afraid of dropping her. I had to lay her back down to secure the blanket around her. I couldn’t help staring at her dark breasts, but after all these years I can remember only the white bones of her ribs pressing up through her brown skin, that I could count them, each rib, as if she was holding a full breath, as if she was still afraid she could be hurt. I had heard the dead were heavy but she was so light I felt she would lift from me, so light I seemed to be holding her spirit. When I looked up I caught a glimpse of Louise hiding behind the door, a small, skinny kid who’d just lost her mother. I carried Louise’s mother down that hall and down those steps. Annie had only asked for one thing, Grandma Magpie said, her daughter had asked to be buried in a homemade pine casket with a green satin lining. I helped my uncle build her coffin. I felt proud to be a man. I think that event sealed in me the desire to help others.