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Chapters (34)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. FLATHEAD INDIAN RESERVATION
  4. Louise and Yellow Knife THE OLD MARRIAGE
  5. Charlie Kicking Woman THE BITE
  6. Jules Bart and Louise THE COWBOY
  7. Charlie Kicking Woman THE HARD TRUTHS
  8. Louise YEARS OF SUMMER
  9. Louise THE FALLING PLACE
  10. Officer Kicking Woman HERE
  11. Louise AT LONG LAST HOME
  12. Louise THE BURNING FIELDS
  13. Charlie Kicking Woman AFTER THE FIRE
  14. Baptiste and Louise THE POWER OF MARRIAGE
  15. Louise ROADS
  16. Charlie Kicking Woman POWWOW
  17. Louise BLIND SPOT
  18. Charlie Kicking Woman CHASING THE DREAM
  19. Louise HEADING HOME
  20. Charlie Kicking Woman THE STILL RIVER PLACE
  21. Louise THE LONG LENGTH OF DAY
  22. Charlie Kicking Woman DUTIES
  23. Louise DEAD SIGHT
  24. Charlie Kicking Woman RESERVATION DEATH
  25. Louise THE LONG HUNGER
  26. Charlie Kicking Woman TROUBLE
  27. Louise OLD GHOSTS
  28. Charlie Kicking Woman SEEING
  29. Louise GOING HOME
  30. Charlie Kicking Woman BAD ROADS MILEPOST MARKER 104
  31. Baptiste Yellow Knife GIFTS
  32. Louise Yellow Knife RETURNING
  33. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  34. About the Author

From the open end of the arena a large mule deer entered. It was strange how nobody saw it at first. I watched the deer run headlong into the dance ring. The great deer lowered its head and kicked up at the other dancers and they were laughing and trying to keep dancing. It bucked and we could all see its antlers, and there was a small roar and clapping from the audience. The buck seemed confused and was bleeding at the nostrils. I tugged at my holster and entered the dancing arena. The dancers were beginning to clear the dance floor, all the dancers but Baptiste.

I unsnapped the top of my holster. I felt the eyes of the audience and the dance-stopped dancers. There was a low drumming and the people were singing a sad prayer. My ears felt hot and I wondered how the hell I had found myself in this situation. My gun felt heavy on my leg, the gun I had no intention of using. I was the dangerous one here. Out of my element. Snagged like a squawfish. Useless. The deer began to circle Baptiste and Baptiste lowered his head. And in the second that it took for me to notice Baptiste, the deer had bounded to the end of the arena area and I caught just a glimpse, the strange silver shine of its tail and then it was gone.

I turned to see Stoner again. I was more aware of him than anybody because I could feel him smiling at me. He had a long grin. And he clapped his hands without noise, letting me know he thought the deer was staged, a show we had worked out as Indians. I began to really look at him. I cocked my head at him and for a moment I felt like laughing. He had bigger problems than me. I looked at his face, dry as dirt at the end of summer. And I’d say he wasn’t long for this life, at least not if Louise left him. But a man can live a long time on desire, an old man’s lifetime. He left the powwow, his big car clipping chuckholes. If he had looked back all he would have seen was me, my hands on my holster, the powwow grounds behind me, the teepees lighting one by one a deep yellow fire he couldn’t get near.

I hadn’t seen Louise. Hemaucus had been dancing earlier and then I saw her go back to the campground. It was still afternoon, but a heavy afternoon over the powwow grounds. Heat pressed the sky down upon us. A sling cloud hung low and purple. If you looked south, in the distance you could see blinding sun raining. I kept waiting for the wind to rush the camp tents and teepees. The wind to chase the candy wrappers and paper cups. But no wind came.