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Chapters (29)
  1. Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Dedication
  4. Mazzy Brower
  5. Part I
  6. One
  7. Two
  8. Three
  9. Four
  10. Five
  11. Six
  12. Seven
  13. Mazzy Brower
  14. Eight
  15. Nine
  16. Ten
  17. Eleven
  18. Mazzy Brower
  19. Twelve
  20. Part II
  21. Thirteen
  22. Fourteen
  23. Fifteen
  24. Sixteen
  25. Seventeen
  26. Acknowledgments
  27. About the Author
  28. Also by Kevin Wilson
  29. About the Publisher

“Maybe we should make art,” he said, just like that, like art was cookies or microwave popcorn. Like if anything was going to keep us from having sex, from doing something we’d regret, it would be art.

“Okay,” I said, still flushed, still tasting celery, “let’s make art.”

We knelt on the floor in my musty garage, baking, making copies of anything that seemed interesting. I’d found a photo of my mom and dad and I used scissors to make a jagged separation between them, cutting the photo in half. I pasted them to the edges of a piece of copy paper, and then Zeke drew all these little designs in the gap between them, snakes wrapped around knives, lightning bolts, a fist punching out of a grave. Then we put it on the copy machine and looked at the black-and-white image it spat out. It made me sad. I wondered if that was kind of the purpose of art, maybe, to make you see things that you knew but couldn’t say out loud.

“This isn’t bad,” Zeke said. “This is pretty cool.”

“I kind of want to throw it away,” I said. “I think I’d feel awful if my mom ever saw this.”

“I think maybe art is supposed to make your family uncomfortable,” he offered.

“Well, I guess I’m not quite an artist yet,” I said, “because I don’t want her to see it.” I crumpled up the original and the copy and tossed them into the garbage can.

We sat on the cement floor, not sure what to do. I wanted to make out again, but I felt weird asking. Zeke was thinking about something, and so I waited to hear what he’d figured out.

“The problem,” he said, “is that this is all so private. We’re just making this stuff and because we’re sitting in your garage, it doesn’t feel like art. It’s like something you’d put in your journal and no one would ever see it except you.”

“Well, there’s no museum or art gallery in town,” I said. “So we couldn’t show it off even if we wanted to.”

“That’s not true,” he said. “In Memphis, there are graffiti artists and they just make any space into a gallery. They, like, climb up onto a building and put up a tag and then disappear before anyone sees them. And it’s pretty cool. Sometimes a tag stays up for a long time, if the city can’t be bothered to paint over it or blast it off.”

“I don’t know how to do graffiti,” I said.

“Well, I don’t either, but we can do something like that, right? We’ve got the copier, right? We can make the tag beforehand and then post it up later. It’ll be faster, and it will be harder for anyone to catch us.”