Back Now Is Not the Time to Panic
Chapters (29)
  1. Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Dedication
  4. Mazzy Brower
  5. Part I
  6. One
  7. Two
  8. Three
  9. Four
  10. Five
  11. Six
  12. Seven
  13. Mazzy Brower
  14. Eight
  15. Nine
  16. Ten
  17. Eleven
  18. Mazzy Brower
  19. Twelve
  20. Part II
  21. Thirteen
  22. Fourteen
  23. Fifteen
  24. Sixteen
  25. Seventeen
  26. Acknowledgments
  27. About the Author
  28. Also by Kevin Wilson
  29. About the Publisher

“Frankie, would you like some coffee? A muffin?” his mom asked. This was the first time that his mother had ever talked to me.

“I’m okay,” I said. “I drank a Mountain Dew and ate some Pop-Tarts on the way here.”

“Pop-Tarts,” Zeke repeated, like he was slowly remembering me, like he had amnesia and my presence was bringing it all back. There was still something off about him, the delayed way he seemed to respond to me, but I felt like that was warranted. I had not seen him in so long and now here I was. All that time I’d dreamed of bringing him back, and he was right here. All that time I’d dreamed of bringing him back, I guess I’d never thought about how, really, it would be me returning to him, making myself known. It was all very weird. And that was comforting, as if weirdness was the thread that connected us, all we really knew of each other, the way we made each other feel like the rest of the world wasn’t real.

“Ben, should we leave you alone, or do you want us to stay?” Mr. Brown asked his son.

“Maybe . . . I think maybe we can be alone. I’ll let you know if I need you,” Zeke said.

“Or,” Zeke’s mom said, “maybe we should talk to Frankie first?” She nodded to her husband. “We could talk to her and see why she’s here and then we could tell you about it.”

That sounded utterly miserable to me, just so painful, and I prayed that Zeke would not do this. I didn’t want a chaperone. We had always been left alone. Although, shit, that had maybe not been a good idea.

“No,” Zeke replied, “it’s okay. We’ll talk.”

“Well . . . we’ll just be in the kitchen,” Mr. Brown said, smiling at me.

“Eating muffins and drinking coffee,” Zeke’s mom added.

“What kind of muffins?” I asked.

“Banana,” she answered immediately. “Are you sure you don’t want one?”

“No,” I replied. “I don’t know why I even asked. I’m . . . I was just curious.”

“Banana,” Zeke’s mom said again, nodding, sure of herself.

After they left, Zeke gestured to the couch, and I sat down, and it was a really soft couch. I kind of sank into it, and my feet weren’t touching the floor, and Zeke sat on an orange leather chair that supported him perfectly. I tried to get resettled but the sofa kept kind of pulling my ass farther into the cushions. Maybe it was a sofa bed? I’m not sure. It was a bad position to be in, not the kind of furniture you want for this kind of reunion.

“So—” I started to say, but of course that was the exact moment that Zeke started talking.

“I read your book,” he said.

“Oh, wow,” I replied.