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Chapters (30)
  1. Title
  2. Dedication
  3. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  4. PROLOGUE
  5. Chapter 1
  6. Chapter 2
  7. Chapter 3
  8. Chapter 4
  9. Chapter 5
  10. Chapter 6
  11. Chapter 7
  12. Chapter 8
  13. Chapter 9
  14. Chapter 10
  15. Chapter 11
  16. Chapter 12
  17. Chapter 13
  18. Chapter 14
  19. Chapter 15
  20. Chapter 16
  21. Chapter 17
  22. Chapter 18
  23. Chapter 19
  24. Chapter 20
  25. Chapter 21
  26. Chapter 22
  27. Chapter 23
  28. Chapter 24
  29. Chapter 25
  30. EPILOGUE

The next message is from Marvelous, calling to remind me to bring her a recipe tomorrow, one I’d told her about last time I saw her. I found it in a magazine—it’s very easy, an all-in-one-pot chicken and rice and exotic spice thing that’s very good. I made it and ate it every night for a week, which is what I always do when I make things that “serve six.”

The third message is from Grace. She’d been crying, it sounded like. “He slept way too long today. I know he’s got something bad. I must of did something. There’s no fever, though, so does that mean he can’t be sick? Can you call me?” A pause. “I wish you were there, you’re not there, are you? … Okay, good-bye.”

I call Grace back, and she says, “Oh, my God, I’m sorry. He’s, like, fine now. I guess he was just sleepy. I would have called you back, but I forgot.”

“It’s okay.”

“But are you still coming tomorrow?”

“I’ll be there.”

“Does it hurt him to watch TV with me? It wasn’t violent, just a Frasier rerun.”

“No, that won’t hurt him.”

“I didn’t think so.”

“You know a lot, Grace. You just need to learn to trust yourself.”

“Yeah, I guess. Oh, one other thing. I gave him some beer in his bottle, but I way diluted it with water. That’s okay, right?”

There is a long moment while I think of where to begin, but then Grace says, “Just kidding.” And then, “Myra?”

“Very funny, Grace. I’ll see you tomorrow.”

I go into the kitchen, open the refrigerator, contemplate the contents. I finished the last “serves six” thing I made last night. I take the lid off a carton of strawberry yogurt, smell it, put it out on the counter. Then I pull out the three shortbread cookies I have left, take them and the yogurt over to the kitchen table, and sit down. I like to eat the yogurt using the cookie as a spoon.

After I finish, I go back to the refrigerator and look around some more. I take out some goat cheese, get sesame crackers from the cupboard, and eat crackers and cheese standing over the sink. Then I make a little salad, which I dress with a very nice vinaigrette. I eat the salad in the living room while I watch the weather report for tomorrow. Eighty-two and dry.

After my salad, I look in the refrigerator once more, eat a strawberry. Then I take the Ben and Jerry’s Heath Bar ice cream out of the freezer and have a few tablespoons of that from the carton while I load the dishwasher with detergent and start it. It’s not very full, but it’s been four days.

And now, the evening. Spread out before me, as they say.