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Chapters (36)
  1. Title Page
  2. content & trigger warnings
  3. Dedication
  4. Playlist
  5. chapter one
  6. giselle
  7. chapter two
  8. bjorn
  9. chapter three
  10. giselle
  11. chapter four
  12. bjorn
  13. chapter five
  14. giselle
  15. chapter six
  16. bjorn
  17. chapter seven
  18. giselle
  19. chapter eight
  20. bjorn
  21. chapter nine
  22. giselle
  23. chapter ten
  24. bjorn
  25. chapter eleven
  26. giselle
  27. chapter twelve
  28. bjorn
  29. chapter thirteen
  30. giselle
  31. chapter fourteen
  32. bjorn
  33. chapter fifteen
  34. giselle
  35. bonus chapter
  36. raiden

The altar drinks its second offering before the main event even begins.

Not from a throat.

Not from a gut.

But from her.

Her slick still stains my mouth. Her scent clings to my skin, sticky and hot, soaking into the grooves of the stone like it was meant to be there.

Blood. Skin. Sin.

The holy trinity of the Cirque Du Désir.

I press my palm flat to the altar, still damp with her. It hums beneath me—ancient and waiting. It's always like this. Every Disting. But this year? This year it’s mine.

The gods are watching.

So is Lux.

And I will not fail.

I whisper a quick chant in Old Norse under my breath, just to keep the gods’ eyes on me.

Flesh for favor. Bone for blessing. Blood for power.

I offer it all.

A high-pitched giggle cuts through the silence behind me. I don’t need to look. I already know.

Johnny.

That painted, grinning, chaos-fueled menace.

“Ohhh, Bjorn, my sweet, broody executioner,” he croons, voice dragging like a blade through silk. “You look so serious. Loosen up—we’re about to have fun!”

I turn my head, just enough to catch him in my peripheral. He’s soaked in gore, patchwork leather clinging to him like flayed skin, face painted in that twisted jester’s grin he wears better than most people wear their souls.

He's already bloodied.

Of course he started without me.

Alaska crawls at Johnny’s feet, bare skin dusted with ash, her black leather harness hugging her chest, silver rings gleaming in the torchlight. Her legs are wrapped in twisted leather straps like a serpent coiled around prey. The thick, rune-carved collar at her throat glints as she moves, bone charms clinking softly—each one a kill she earned. Her leash is wound tight around Johnny’s wrist, and her face is a mess of smudged black paint and blood-red lips, grinning too wide.

Too hungry. A wolf dressed in worship.

“We’re working, Johnny,” I say flatly.

He snorts, tightening his grip on her leash and giving it a sharp jerk.

“Oh, but we are working,” he hums, mock-bowing before the altar like a court jester in a bloodied throne room. “See? I brought you presents.”

He kicks a man forward—shaking, barefoot, eyes wild. The kind of man who once thought he was powerful. Rich. Untouchable. Now? Just meat with a pretty face.

Johnny kicks again. A second one stumbles. A woman this time, breath hitching as she looks up at me like I might save her.

Wrong tent.

Alaska crawls to Johnny’s side and rests her head on his thigh like the obedient little thing she is. Her eyes glitter as she looks at me.

“Do you like them, Bjorn?” she asks, teeth sharp. “Johnny picked the juicy ones.”

I step forward, gripping my axe tight in one hand, letting the weight of it remind me who I am.