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Chapters (36)
  1. Title Page
  2. content & trigger warnings
  3. Dedication
  4. Playlist
  5. chapter one
  6. giselle
  7. chapter two
  8. bjorn
  9. chapter three
  10. giselle
  11. chapter four
  12. bjorn
  13. chapter five
  14. giselle
  15. chapter six
  16. bjorn
  17. chapter seven
  18. giselle
  19. chapter eight
  20. bjorn
  21. chapter nine
  22. giselle
  23. chapter ten
  24. bjorn
  25. chapter eleven
  26. giselle
  27. chapter twelve
  28. bjorn
  29. chapter thirteen
  30. giselle
  31. chapter fourteen
  32. bjorn
  33. chapter fifteen
  34. giselle
  35. bonus chapter
  36. raiden

“You will serve,” I murmur.

I move down the line, branding each one. Red. Black. Gold.

Red for death.

Black for use.

Gold for suffering.

“Some of you were made to be used,” I say, gesturing to the ones already leaking between their legs, breath hitching from the weight of eyes on them. “Some of you were made to die,” I continue, eyes locking with a man sobbing quietly through his mask. “And the gods?” I smile. “They will feast on all of you.”

chapter three

giselle

They say murder isn’t the answer.

Cute.

Murder’s always the answer—you’re just not asking the right questions.

Like: How deep should the knife go? Or will he moan or scream first?

Those are the fun ones.

It’s late now. Later than most people survive. And the tent? Oh, baby... the tent is alive.

Breathing in lust, exhaling death. There’s blood in the air, sweat on the floor, and a body count that’s definitely broken double digits.

Cirque Du Désir is in full fucking bloom.

And I’m starving.

I strut barefoot across the ring, my legs stained red up to my thighs. My paints are mostly gone—melted off in sweat and sin—but the blood stuck around like a jealous lover. I don’t bother cleaning up. What’s the point? I like the mess. I am the mess.

The tent moans and howls and pulses around me. The scent of sex is everywhere—a mix of leather, iron, spit, and desperation. It clings to your skin, seeps into your lungs. You don’t breathe air in here. You breathe kink, chaos and fire.

To my left, some poor bastard is tied upside down from a beam while a masked girl rides his face like a Valkyrie on a warhorse. Every time he chokes, she squeals.

To my right? A couple is throat-deep in bloodplay and something that smells suspiciously like piss. Good for them. Ten outta ten.

I blow them a kiss and keep walking.

A stilt walker lumbers past juggling fresh organs. I spot a kidney, maybe a liver—hard to tell from this angle. "Damn," I murmur, licking my lips. "Looks like I missed a good show."

Someone screams near Johnny’s section—high-pitched, guttural, definitely pain. Sounds like he hit something vital. Alaska’s probably got her teeth sunk into someone’s thigh again, chewing through the muscle like it’s fucking steak tartare.

Gods, I love it here.

And then I see him.

Red-branded.

Stripped. Bound. Gorgeous. Tied to a throne built from bones and shattered steel. Chest bare. Eyes wide. Fear radiating off him like heat off a forge.

* * *

"Mine," I whisper with a giggle, bouncing on the balls of my feet like I’ve just spotted a prize at a fucked-up carnival. My fingers twitch with excitement, and my eyes light up like fire. I sway closer, practically humming. Oh, I can already taste the screams.