We didn’t honor Disting in chapels. Ours was held in the woods behind the cabin, where the snow swallowed your breath and the pines whispered your sins. No velvet, no altar. Just a tree stump worn down to bone, a pit full of soot, and the forest watching like it had seen it all before.

My brothers pinned the lamb. I made the cut. Its blood steamed in the air, hot against the cold. My mother, barefoot in the snow, dragged it across our cheeks with fingers that never shook. She didn’t chant. She whispered—low and slow—like the gods were listening, like they needed her voice to find us.

We burned resin. Bones. A wooden comb passed down from someone with frost in his beard and violence in his name. We fasted. We drank. We fucked in the snow like wolves, breath sharp in our lungs, moans eaten by the black sky overhead.

We didn’t perform for anyone.

We remembered.

That’s what Disting is. A reckoning, not a spectacle. The gods don’t want praise. They want sacrifice. And tonight, they were answered.

Lux gave that to me. Not just the stage. The trust. The reverence. He let me pull the old ways into this circus of sinners and saints, flame and bone—and the gods came. I felt them.

I sink to one knee. The stone is slick beneath me, sticky with blood and ash, something soft brushing against my shin—skin, maybe. A breast. A face. I don’t look down. Every inch of this ground is sacred now.

I grip my axe, press its haft into the blood-wet floor, and bow my head into it.

This is worship.

“Odin, All-father. Watcher of gallows. Caller of ravens. Tyr, one-handed judge, who bleeds for balance and binds oaths with pain. Skadi, huntress of the frost, steel-hearted and sharp-eyed, Hel, quiet queen of the forgotten, cloaked in ash and bone—Tonight, you were honored. You were fed.”

The tent doesn’t answer. But the weight shifts. Not silence—never that. Something heavier. Reverent. It hums in my bones, thick as blood, deep as root.

Behind me, I hear them.

Giselle’s laughter dances through the carnage—light, cracked, wicked. Like wind chimes made of femurs. She hums something sweet and foul, soaked in someone else’s ruin, bones clattering in her hair like trophies. My Valkyrie. My fucking masterpiece.

Ma petite mort.

She killed for them tonight. For me. Slit a man open like a gift and rode him to the brink before turning his final breath into an offering. She straddled him like he was a throne and she was born wearing a crown of knives. The gods watched, ravenous. But so did I.

And I saw more than they did.