But even on the ninth floor of Bellevue – which is where they lock up the crazy people in New York – I probably wouldn’t be safe from the ghosts. They’d find me.

They always do.

I remember my first. I remember it as clearly as any of my other memories of that time, which is to say, not very well, since I was about two years old. I guess I remember it about as well as I remember taking a mouse away from our cat and cradling it in my arms until my horrified mother took it away.

Hey, I was two, OK? I didn’t know then that mice were something to be afraid of. Ghosts, either, for that matter. That’s why, fourteen years later, neither of them frighten me. Startle me, maybe, sometimes. Annoy me, a lot. But frighten me?

Never.

The ghost, like the mouse, was little, grey and helpless. To this day, I don’t know who she was, I spoke to her, some baby gibberish that she didn’t understand. Ghosts can’t understand two-year-olds any better than anybody else. She just looked at me sadly from the top of the stairs of our apartment building. I guess I felt sorry for her, the way I had for the mouse, and wanted to help her. Only I didn’t know how. So I did what any uncertain two-year-old would do. I ran for my mother.

That was when I learned my first lesson concerning ghosts: only I can see them.

Well, obviously, other people can see them. How else would we have haunted houses and ghost stories and Unsolved Mysteries and all of that? But there’s a difference. Most people who see ghosts only see one. I see all ghosts.

All of them. Anybody. Anybody who has died and for whatever reason is hanging around on earth instead of going wherever it is he or she is supposed to go, I can see.

And let me tell you, that is a lot of ghosts.

I found out the same day that I saw my first ghost that most people – even my own mother – can’t see them at all. Neither can anyone else I have ever met. At least, no one who’ll admit it.

Which brings us to the second thing I learned about ghosts that day fourteen years ago: it’s really better, in the long run, not to mention that you’ve seen one. Or, as in my case, any.

I’m not saying my mother figured out that it was a ghost I was pointing to and gibbering about that afternoon when I was two. I doubt she knew it. She probably thought I was trying to tell her something about the mouse, which she had confiscated from me earlier that morning. But she looked gamely up the stairs and nodded and said, ‘Uh-huh. Listen, Suze. What do you want for lunch today? Grilled cheese? Or tuna fish?’

I hadn’t exactly expected a reaction similar to the one the mouse had gotten – my mother, who’d been cradling a neighbour’s newborn at the time, had let out a glorious shriek at the sight of the mouse in my arms, and had screamed even harder at my proud announcement, ‘Look, Mommy. Now I’ve got a baby, too,’ which I realize now she couldn’t have understood, since she didn’t get it about the ghost.