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  1. Praise for Ali Hazelwood
  2. TITLES BY ALI HAZELWOOD
  3. LOATHE TO LOVE YOU
  4. Contents
  5. Under
  6. One Roof
  7. Prologue
  8. One
  9. Two
  10. Three
  11. Four
  12. Five
  13. Six
  14. Seven
  15. Eight
  16. Nine
  17. Ten
  18. Eleven
  19. Twelve
  20. Thirteen
  21. Epilogue
  22. Stuck
  23. with You
  24. One
  25. Two
  26. Three
  27. Four
  28. Five
  29. Six
  30. Seven
  31. Eight
  32. Nine
  33. Ten
  34. Eleven
  35. Twelve
  36. Epilogue
  37. Below
  38. Zero
  39. Prologue
  40. One
  41. Two
  42. Three
  43. Four
  44. Five
  45. Six
  46. Seven
  47. Eight
  48. Nine
  49. Epilogue
  50. Bonus
  51. Chapter
  52. Acknowledgments
  53. What’s next on your reading list?

Would he . . . ? If he saw me wearing my . . . would he still think that . . . ?

Oh my God. What is wrong with me? This poor man just gave me his croissant.

“Anyway,” I hasten to add, “maybe there’re a lot of people buying good luck croissants, because I’m not alone in my . . . magical thinking—nice way to put it, by the way. For example, my friend Hannah works at NASA, and she says that the engineers there have had whole complex routines involving Planters peanuts and mission launches for the past, like, fifty years. And I’m an engineer. Basically, I’m professionally required to—”

“You’re an engineer?” His eyes widen in surprise.

My heart sinks with disappointment. Oh God. He’s one of those. I can’t believe he’s one of those.

I scowl and stand from the bench, looking down at him with a frown. “FYI, in the U.S., fifteen percent of the engineering workforce is made up of women. And that number has been steadily increasing, so there is no need to be so shocked that—”

“I’m not.”

My frown deepens. “You sure looked like—”

“I’m an engineer myself, and it seemed like a coincidence of sorts.” His mouth twitches again. “I thought your magical thinking might be tickled.”

“Oh.” My cheeks burn. “Oh.” Wow. Am I the Asshole, Reddit? Why, you kind of are, Sadie. “Sorry, I didn’t mean to imply—”

“Where did you study?” he asks, unruffled, pulling at my wrist till I sit again. I end up a little closer to him than I was before, but it’s fine. It’s okay. Siri, how many times can I utterly humiliate myself in the span of thirty minutes? Infinite, you say? Thank you, that’s what I figured.

“Um, Caltech. I finished my Ph.D. last year. You?”

“NYU. Got my master’s . . . ten, eleven years ago?”

We stare at each other, me calculating his age, him . . . I don’t know. Maybe he’s calculating, too. He must be six or seven years older than me. Not that it’s in any way relevant. We’re just chatting. We’re going our separate ways in twelve seconds.

“Where do you work?” he asks.

“GreenFrame. You?”

“ProBld.”

I scrunch my nose, instantly recognizing the name—from both the plaques in the lobby of my office building and the New York engineering grapevine. There are lots of firms in this area, and he works at my least favorite. The big jellyfish that keeps expanding by eating the smaller jellyfish. Not that they’re terrible—they’re fine. But they’re old-school and don’t focus on sustainability nearly as much as we do. But they do have a solid rep, and some of our potential clients even choose them over us because of that. Which: bleh.

“Did you just make a repulsed face when I mentioned my company?”

“No. No! I mean, yeah. A little. But I didn’t mean it in an offensive way. They just don’t seem to adopt a whole-systems approach to problem-solving when dealing with environmental challenges . . .” His eyes shine. Is he teasing me? Does Corporate Thor tease? “I mean, I am now over twenty minutes late for work. Realistically, I’ll probably be fired and end up begging you guys for a job.”