Chapters (30)
“You’re flaked out,” he said. “I’ll run you home.” His voice had suddenly lost its aggressiveness, and he seemed to have forgotten about my still untouched pony glass.
On the way home we didn’t talk; but he seemed curiously pleased about something. I guessed what had made him happy, what now and again brought him to the verge of a chuckle; I felt myself warming to him. He got out of the car and went to the garden gate with me. I saw to my relief that the house was dark. I was home and I knew that the aubretia and the morning glory had come out. I recognised them now only by their location; tomorrow I should see them opened out, blue and pink and lavender and crimson.
“Come in for a drink,” I said to George.
“It’s too late,” he said. “Thanks just the same.”
“Bring Maureen here some time,” I said, as he was getting back in the car.
“I’d love to,” he said. “Goodnight, Joe.”
The car door slammed. It was a solid railway carriage slam; George had a Mercedes now. I watched him till he went out of sight then opened the front door. I didn’t go in immediately; I turned and had a last look out. Everything had been settled now, I thought, there was no pain left. Warley had stayed the same, Warley had won in the end, George would give his wife children and the dead would rest. I went indoors, closing the door softly, and opened my briefcase to look for the colour film and the panda.
6
6
“Use the record-player if you like, Gerda.”
“Thank you, Mr. Lampton.”
She bobbed her head as if to begin a curtsey. She looked very plump and blonde and submissive; I wondered, not for the first time, how she would react if I made a really determined pass. How did one begin? You’ve been a good girl, a very good girl; then a pat on the rosy cheek. I’ve a little present for you – but I hadn’t a little present for her, and I didn’t mess about with the servants. Not that she was a servant; her father was a customer of ours and she’d come over to learn the language. So she was one of the family. There weren’t any servants now; I’d been born too late.
“In Hamburg now we shall all be out of doors,” Gerda said. “We shall dance out of doors also.”
“We haven’t the facilities here,” I said. “But there’s a flannel dance tonight.”
She wrinkled her nose. “You dance in flannel?”
“You can wear summer clothes.” I looked over her shoulder at the mural. The Venetian blinds were half closed and the kitchen was full of shadows; there were lines on the drawings which I hadn’t noticed before.