Chapters (35)
- Cover
- BERNARDINE EVARISTO
- LARA
- Dedication
- LARA DA COSTA FAMILY TREE
- Epigraph
- INDEX OF FIRST LINES
- PART ONE
- PROLOGUE
- CHAPTER 1
- CHAPTER 2
- CHAPTER 3
- CHAPTER 4
- CHAPTER 5
- CHAPTER 6
- CHAPTER 7
- CHAPTER 8
- CHAPTER 9
- PART TWO
- CHAPTER 10
- CHAPTER 11
- CHAPTER 12
- CHAPTER 13
- CHAPTER 14
- CHAPTER 15
- CHAPTER 16
- CHAPTER 17
- CHAPTER 18
- CHAPTER 19
- CHAPTER 20
- EPILOGUE
- GLOSSARY
- ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
- About the Author
- Copyright
expand out of Peggy’s eyes, creep unassailed down
drawn, twitching cheeks while her attentive audience
await her command – the edict? ‘The concerted effort
of all those gathered here today will stop, at all costs,
this unspeakable union. So let it be written!’
Then she blows her nose.
A RAINBOW flashes the exhausted sky,
framing low, gleaming buildings and refreshed trees.
The stockinged legs and baggy turn-ups of lovers
cycle joyfully in tandem across the common’s mulch
and on down the hill to the pristine terraced houses
where Taiwo deposits his beaming fiancée safely home.
Peggy, hearing foreign rumbles at her gate, flings open
the door, hisses him to go away before the neighbours
see him, shoos him off. Taiwo wheels his pushbike
off the pavement and pedals away, shoulders hunched,
and Ellen feels fury struggle up her windpipe but, unused
to its disturbing sensation, coughs it back down, sees
the despair in her mother’s half-open mouth, dashes
past her inside. The sapped sun drops to the east
over Woolwich, its farewell a lingering light as Taiwo
makes his exodus. How man must suffer, he sighs.
She judges me but she does not know me.
Oh Mama, these people hate me.
PEGGY’S duck pillows become ponds when Ellen visits,
her night-time sobs are an overflowing bath, journey
from the master bedroom to her daughter’s own, seep
steadily under the door like an army’s advancing front line,
then crawl up her blanket to claim her. Ellen knows
the ritual: first her mother derides Taiwo’s existence,
a volley of machine gun invective ensues, finally,
deflating, she becomes a sodden, spineless
vessel brimming with tears, pleas and cajoling;
her pain – a hive of frightened bees at Ellen’s heart.
Faith is the spinal chord which keeps the girl sane.
Were they not all God’s children? How very silly!
Why such fuss because of colour? She barely noticed it.
Other times the hoo-haa she caused exhilarated her
for she, who had never put a foot wrong in her life,
was finally, unequivocally, shamelessly Being Naughty.
A solution to the problem popped into her head as she
Macleaned her teeth one histrionic morning. Her mother
should meet Taiwo, see how nice he was. After all,
she’d never even met a coloured person, but Peggy beat
her to it: ‘Bring him to tea!’ she shouted upstairs.
‘AND HOW MANY wives do you have, Bill?’
A pyramid of trimmed and quartered sandwiches
separated Peggy’s high-collar from Taiwo’s blue-tied
Adam’s apple. Cheddar cheese lay guillotined
on a thin slice of oak tree; exposed lettuce, sliced
tomatoes and slaughtered carrot were criss-crossed
with a filigree of Heinz salad cream. Taiwo sipped
tasteless piss water from a midget’s cup, gripped
his back teeth like a pestle grinding corn in a mortar,
smiled mechanically at the diminutive devil opposite.
Peggy added, ‘And what do you do, exactly?’