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Contents (41)
  1. Chapter One Atlas
  2. Chapter Two Lily
  3. Chapter Three Atlas
  4. Chapter Four Lily
  5. Chapter Five Atlas
  6. Chapter Six Lily
  7. Chapter Seven Atlas
  8. Chapter Eight Lily
  9. Chapter Nine Atlas
  10. Chapter Ten Lily
  11. Chapter Eleven Atlas
  12. Chapter Twelve Lily
  13. Chapter Thirteen Atlas
  14. Chapter Fourteen Lily
  15. Chapter Fifteen Atlas
  16. Chapter Sixteen Lily
  17. Chapter Seventeen Atlas
  18. Chapter Eighteen Lily
  19. Chapter Nineteen Atlas
  20. Chapter Twenty Lily
  21. Chapter Twenty-One Atlas
  22. Chapter Twenty-Two Lily
  23. Chapter Twenty-Three Atlas
  24. Chapter Twenty-Four Lily
  25. Chapter Twenty-Five Atlas
  26. Chapter Twenty-Six Lily
  27. Chapter Twenty-Seven Atlas
  28. Chapter Twenty-Eight Lily
  29. Chapter Twenty-Nine Atlas
  30. Chapter Thirty Lily
  31. Chapter Thirty-One Atlas
  32. Chapter Thirty-Two Lily
  33. Chapter Thirty-Three Atlas
  34. Chapter Thirty-Four Lily
  35. Chapter Thirty-Five Atlas
  36. Chapter Thirty-Six Lily
  37. Chapter Thirty-Seven Atlas
  38. Acknowledgments
  39. About the Author
  40. Also by Colleen Hoover
  41. Table of Contents

I really don’t want to tell her where I’m going, but it’s Allysa. She reads me better than anyone. She can see the hesitation on my face and takes it for exactly what it is. “Is this a date outfit?” She whispers it and then closes the front door. “Is it the Greek god?”

“Atlas. Yes. Please don’t tell your brother.”

Right when I say that, I notice Marshall standing close by in the living room. He immediately covers his ears and says, “I heard nothing. I see nothing. Lalalalalala.” He walks through the foyer and disappears into the kitchen.

Allysa brushes his presence off with a wave. “He’s so good at being neutral; don’t worry about him.” She motions for me to follow her into the living room. Rylee is in a playpen, so Allysa walks Emmy over to her. “Rylee, look who’s here!”

Rylee smiles when she sees Emmy. The girls are starting to show excitement in each other’s presence. I love that they’re not too far apart in age. The six-month gap feels smaller and smaller the older Emmy gets.

“Where is he taking you?”

I smooth my hands down my outfit, and then flick off a piece of lint. “To dinner, but I’ve never been to this place. I hope I’m not overdressed.”

“Is this your first date with him? You seem nervous.”

“It is our first date, and I am nervous. But it’s a different kind of nervous. A good nervous. I know him so well already, so I don’t feel like I’m about to have to spend an evening with a stranger.”

Allysa studies me for a moment with gentle eyes. “You seem excited. I’ve missed this side of you.”

“Yeah. Me too.” I bend to give both Emmy and Rylee kisses. “I won’t be out too late. I have to get back to the shop and close up for Lucy, so he’s picking me up there. I should be back around nine thirty, so try to keep her up until then if you don’t mind.”

“Why are you coming back so early? That’s lame.”

“I didn’t sleep last night. I’m exhausted. But I don’t want to cancel the date, so I’m going to power through.”

“Ugh. Motherhood,” Allysa says, rolling her eyes. “I’ll keep her awake—go have fun. Drink a coffee or a five-hour or something.”

I’ve lost count of the number of coffees I’ve had today. “Love you. Thanks for saving the day,” I say on my way out the door.

“That’s what I’m here for,” she singsongs.

Chapter Eleven Atlas

I wanted the day to go by faster, so I decided to help out in the kitchen at Bib’s even though I prepared for the night with a full staff. Now I smell like garlic. This is the third time I’ve tried scrubbing the smell off, to no avail. But if I don’t leave now, I’ll be late meeting her.

We’re taking it slow, so I’m picking her up at her work rather than her apartment. I have no idea where she lives now, or if she still lives in the apartment building I showed up at almost two years ago when she needed help. For whatever reason, where we live is something that hasn’t come up in our conversations. She probably doesn’t even know I sold my house and moved into the city earlier this year. I’m curious how far apart we live from each other now.