Chapters (42)
- Cover
- Praise for Luan Goldie
- About the Author
- Also by Luan Goldie
- Note to Readers
- Dedication
- Chapter One
- Chapter Two
- Chapter Three
- Chapter Four
- Chapter Five
- Chapter Six
- Chapter Seven
- Chapter Eight
- Chapter Nine
- Chapter Ten
- Chapter Eleven
- Chapter Twelve
- Chapter Thirteen
- Chapter Fourteen
- Chapter Fifteen
- Chapter Sixteen
- Chapter Seventeen
- Chapter Eighteen
- Chapter Nineteen
- Chapter Twenty
- Chapter Twenty-One
- Chapter Twenty-Two
- Chapter Twenty-Three
- Chapter Twenty-Four
- Chapter Twenty-Five
- Chapter Twenty-Six
- Chapter Twenty-Seven
- Chapter Twenty-Eight
- Chapter Twenty-Nine
- Acknowledgements
- Extract
- Saturday, 4 May 1996
- Chapter One
- Chapter Two
- Chapter Three
- About the Publisher
Yvonne should never have come tonight. She knew it would feel like this, somehow dishonest. She’s not even at the end of the road when she takes her phone out and checks to see if he’s sent her a text. She smiles as she opens it, reading his brief message. Call me when you’re done. It’s only just gone half eleven, she should make him wait, at least until after midnight. But then if he’s going to invite her over she needs to know before she gets on the tube and loses reception. She loiters outside the station, watching the pickpockets and tipsy office workers, her finger poised on the call button.
Emma was right, it is cold. She zips up the jacket, which smells of cigarette smoke and Tommy Girl, and hits call. The phone rings several times and she prays it doesn’t go to voicemail.
He picks up. ‘Hey.’
‘Hey.’ She blushes at the sound of his voice. It’s always like this with him, she’s not sure if it’s because they never see each other enough to get fully comfortable, or if it’s something more than that. The way she feels about him is so much more all-consuming than she’s ever felt about anyone else.
‘How was the party?’ he asks.
‘It was okay. But I didn’t really know anyone there.’
‘And how was the Princess?’
Never before has he asked about Emma. She was the subject they both happily avoided.
‘Fine,’ she answers, her voice small; she doesn’t want to talk about Emma with him. It was weird enough telling him whose party she was going to in the first place.
‘Did you guys talk?’
‘About what?’
He sniggers. About him, that’s what he wants to hear, that they compared notes. ‘I don’t know. Girl stuff?’
‘Lewis.’
‘No, you’re right. It’s none of my business.’
‘I didn’t tell her, if that’s what you’re asking me.’
There’s a silence.
A group of drunken women in tights and trainers ask a station attendant the times of the last tube. She can’t stand around here for much longer. She needs to make a decision.
‘So,’ he says. ‘What time do you think you’ll get here?’
‘I didn’t say I was coming over.’
He laughs. ‘But my brother’s gone out. I’m alone and don’t know what to do with myself.’
She sighs. She shouldn’t go there. Not now. She shouldn’t play it so easy. ‘I have work in the morning. At eight.’
‘You have work every morning. Come over, you know I always wake you up on time.’
‘I’ve been at a party, I’m tired. What makes you think I want to come all the way up to yours?’ She’s not even convincing herself.
‘You can read a book on the tube.’