Chapters (42)
- Cover
- Praise for Luan Goldie
- About the Author
- Also by Luan Goldie
- Note to Readers
- Dedication
- Chapter One
- Chapter Two
- Chapter Three
- Chapter Four
- Chapter Five
- Chapter Six
- Chapter Seven
- Chapter Eight
- Chapter Nine
- Chapter Ten
- Chapter Eleven
- Chapter Twelve
- Chapter Thirteen
- Chapter Fourteen
- Chapter Fifteen
- Chapter Sixteen
- Chapter Seventeen
- Chapter Eighteen
- Chapter Nineteen
- Chapter Twenty
- Chapter Twenty-One
- Chapter Twenty-Two
- Chapter Twenty-Three
- Chapter Twenty-Four
- Chapter Twenty-Five
- Chapter Twenty-Six
- Chapter Twenty-Seven
- Chapter Twenty-Eight
- Chapter Twenty-Nine
- Acknowledgements
- Extract
- Saturday, 4 May 1996
- Chapter One
- Chapter Two
- Chapter Three
- About the Publisher
As she comes back to the table Emma is going through Yvonne’s handbag and picking out her phone. Yvonne’s heart races, ‘What are you doing?’ she panics.
‘Your ringtone is so loud.’
Yvonne grabs it and checks the missed call, an unknown number.
‘It rang for ages. Who’s so desperate to get hold of you at this time on a Friday night?’
‘No one. It’s no one.’
‘Liar. It’s half ten. That was a booty call,’ Emma teases. ‘Are you getting back together with Jaden? Has he been sitting on your desk again?’
‘No. That was ages ago. I told you that was nothing.’ Yvonne switches off her screen and puts it in her bag, covering it with a scarf, as if it makes a difference. ‘What did you order? Sex on the Beach? I hate peach.’
‘I didn’t know it was made with peach.’
‘But you do know what I like. I’m surprised they even sell these here, so tacky.’
‘For fuck’s sake, Yvonne, I’m sorry I didn’t order a sophisticated enough drink for you.’
‘Oh, give it a rest.’
Emma straightens in her seat and takes a sip of the drink before recoiling. ‘Urgh, this is sweet.’
They both laugh and Emma pushes the drink away. ‘Sorry, babe,’ she says.
‘No, don’t be. It’s just a drink.’
‘I don’t know why you still put up with me,’ Emma says. ‘I bore myself sometimes.’
They look over at the next table where a group of men laugh overenthusiastically at each other.
‘So,’ Emma says in a way that signals she’s about to say something serious. Yvonne prays that somehow Emma knows all and is about to confront her, to save her from having to say the words herself. ‘I’ve been thinking about Kenya.’
‘Kenya?’ It throws her completely. ‘What about it?’
‘About going back. About making a different life for myself. Showing Kiama something real.’
‘You’re talking about poverty. What is this thing with people wanting to expose their children to extreme poverty?’
Emma pulls the orange slice from the drink and bites it, leaving the rind. ‘I want to show him a different kind of life.’
‘You took him before. You said he complained the whole time about it being too hot.’
‘He was only four then.’ Emma closes her eyes. ‘I wish I could go back.’
‘Everyone wants to go back to being a kid again.’
‘We’ve got nothing here.’
‘That’s not true. Kiama has everything here. His family. His school. His friends.’
‘I need to change my life.’ She wraps the necklace around her fingers again and this time Yvonne doesn’t mention it. ‘Would I be able to sublet my flat?’
‘No.’
‘Why not?’
‘Because you can’t sublet a council property.’
‘Everyone does it.’
‘No, they don’t. Because subletting is illegal. And immoral.’