Before I can stand Leo’s hand wraps around my arm and lifts me up and against him. His hold is tight, coming close to pain but I don’t complain. Despite what happened my body responds to him all over again, melting into him, wanting more. I can barely breathe as he lowers his head the heat of his breath tangles with mine. The scent of him is all around me, I want to sink into him and never leave. Then he blinks, he lets me go as if he just realized he was holding me. I fight to stay standing. Without another word or even a second look, he walks out my front door.

***

Felix is acting up, I’m not in the mood for it. I warn him if he doesn’t stop he’s going in his carrier. With a hiss, he finally leaves me alone. The seconds tick by, I’m squirming in embarrassment as I wait for Leo’s response to what I just sent him. There is no way Leo won’t have something to say about it. I sent the notes from my visit to the doctor today.

It was the most uncomfortable I’ve ever been with my doctor and considering she was the person who helped me learn to insert a tampon it’s saying a lot. My dad found her when I was sixteen and explained the whole no mom or woman in my life thing. Dr. Zhou has been amazing, no question I had was ever stupid, and every appointment felt like a gossip session. Not today's visit.

It was bad enough having to explain why I was there. I think it’s a very good thing Leo didn’t go with me because Dr. Zhou was pissed at him. I spent half the visit defending him and the other half hating him for putting me through it. Of course, it was the one thing he got a good point from Dr. Zhou for, checking to make sure there were no lasting effects was important she assured me. Then she started in on birth control and how Plan B really is a back-up not something to make a usual thing. Before I knew it, I agreed to a birth control shot, that hurt like hell and a bottle of lubricant for next time. I thought I was going to faint I went so red when I told her that I wasn’t even sure there would be a next time.

Dr. Zhou laughed at me and assured me with everything I told her, she could guarantee there would be a next time. She said to use condoms for a few days, and the last thing I should be worried about is pregnancy. The notation Dr. Zhou added when I asked for the note on the visit likely wasn’t going to help. I almost crossed out the word asshole but didn’t bother.