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Chapters (61)
  1. TITLE PAGE
  2. COPYRIGHT PAGE
  3. DEDICATION
  4. PART ONE
  5. CHAPTER 1 DEIRDRE
  6. CHAPTER 2 DEIRDRE
  7. CHAPTER 3 DEIRDRE
  8. CHAPTER 4 THEO
  9. CHAPTER 5 DEIRDRE
  10. CHAPTER 6 DEIRDRE
  11. CHAPTER 7 DEIRDRE
  12. CHAPTER 8 DEIRDRE
  13. CHAPTER 9 DEIRDRE
  14. CHAPTER 10 THEO
  15. CHAPTER 11 THEO
  16. CHAPTER 12 DEIRDRE
  17. CHAPTER 13 DEIRDRE
  18. CHAPTER 14 DEIRDRE
  19. CHAPTER 15 THEO
  20. CHAPTER 16 DEIRDRE
  21. CHAPTER 17 THEO
  22. CHAPTER 18 DEIRDRE
  23. CHAPTER 19 THEO
  24. CHAPTER 20 DEIRDRE
  25. PART TWO
  26. CHAPTER 21 DEIRDRE
  27. CHAPTER 22 THEO
  28. CHAPTER 23 DEIRDRE
  29. CHAPTER 24 DEIRDRE
  30. CHAPTER 25 THEO
  31. CHAPTER 26 DEIRDRE
  32. CHAPTER 27 DEIRDRE
  33. CHAPTER 28 THEO
  34. CHAPTER 29 DEIRDRE
  35. CHAPTER 30 THEO
  36. CHAPTER 31 DEIRDRE
  37. CHAPTER 32 DEIRDRE
  38. CHAPTER 33 DEIRDRE
  39. CHAPTER 34 THEO
  40. CHAPTER 35 DEIRDRE
  41. CHAPTER 36 DEIRDRE
  42. CHAPTER 37 THEO
  43. PART THREE
  44. CHAPTER 38 DEIRDRE
  45. CHAPTER 39 DEIRDRE
  46. CHAPTER 40 THEO
  47. CHAPTER 41 DEIRDRE
  48. CHAPTER 42 THEO
  49. CHAPTER 43 DEIRDRE
  50. CHAPTER 44 DEIRDRE
  51. CHAPTER 45 THEO
  52. CHAPTER 46 DEIRDRE
  53. CHAPTER 47 THEO
  54. CHAPTER 48 THEO
  55. CHAPTER 49 DEIRDRE
  56. CHAPTER 50 DEIRDRE
  57. CHAPTER 51 THEO
  58. CHAPTER 52 THEO
  59. CHAPTER 53 DEIRDRE
  60. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  61. ABOUT THE AUTHOR

He stared at it blankly. “Yeah. I have a bunch of burner accounts for sources.”

“But you hadn’t seen the message?”

He shook his head. “I don’t check them that often. But that message was for me.”

X, she had called him. I guess that meant ex, which I wasn’t even sure was accurate. “What does it mean? What did Caro want you to do?”

“I can’t share that.”

“You can tell me or you can tell the cops.” I didn’t know when I’d become a cheerleader for the NYPD, first asking Theo’s father to talk to them and now offering to sic them on Ben. I just didn’t have anything else to threaten him with.

“Look, Deirdre, I would love to be able to confide in you,” Ben said. “But I don’t know whose side you’re on.”

“I’m on Caro’s side,” I said. “I don’t care about anything else.”

“Show me the message she sent you.”

It was my turn to be affronted. “Excuse me?”

“If she sent me a message, she sent one to you,” Ben said. “I need to see it.”

Reluctantly, I pulled it up on my phone. He read it silently, nodding to himself.

“So she did tell you,” he said. “That’s good. Otherwise, you wouldn’t believe me about Theo.”

“What did Caro tell you?”

Ben raised an eyebrow. “She never described the torture her husband put her through? The shit that was happening at her house?”

“Like what?”

“Did she ever mention how she had no privacy? How things would move from room to room, how her private possessions would be rearranged?”

“I only heard a little about it.”

“Caroline was afraid to tell anyone,” Ben said. “It made her sound crazy. Claiming that someone moved your shoes to the wrong shoebox makes you sound psycho. But that’s by design.”

“By design?” I repeated. “I don’t get it.”

“It’s psychological warfare,” Ben said. “It’s like death by a thousand cuts. It was a tactic perfected by the Stasi—the secret police—in East Germany. They sent officers to move things around in dissidents’ homes when they weren’t there. It was meant to disorient them, and it was a perfect way to distance them from people they cared about. Because when they told people close to them, it was dismissed as lunacy and paranoia.”

“Let me get this straight. They just moved stuff? They didn’t take things?”

“Right. Taking things gives you a legitimate crime to report. Saying a ring is missing doesn’t make you cuckoo. But saying someone came into your home and rearranged your jewelry box . . . well, how would you tell anybody that with a straight face?”

“They’d think you did it yourself and forgot.” There was an ugly logic to what he was saying.