Chapters (61)
- TITLE PAGE
- COPYRIGHT PAGE
- DEDICATION
- PART ONE
- CHAPTER 1 DEIRDRE
- CHAPTER 2 DEIRDRE
- CHAPTER 3 DEIRDRE
- CHAPTER 4 THEO
- CHAPTER 5 DEIRDRE
- CHAPTER 6 DEIRDRE
- CHAPTER 7 DEIRDRE
- CHAPTER 8 DEIRDRE
- CHAPTER 9 DEIRDRE
- CHAPTER 10 THEO
- CHAPTER 11 THEO
- CHAPTER 12 DEIRDRE
- CHAPTER 13 DEIRDRE
- CHAPTER 14 DEIRDRE
- CHAPTER 15 THEO
- CHAPTER 16 DEIRDRE
- CHAPTER 17 THEO
- CHAPTER 18 DEIRDRE
- CHAPTER 19 THEO
- CHAPTER 20 DEIRDRE
- PART TWO
- CHAPTER 21 DEIRDRE
- CHAPTER 22 THEO
- CHAPTER 23 DEIRDRE
- CHAPTER 24 DEIRDRE
- CHAPTER 25 THEO
- CHAPTER 26 DEIRDRE
- CHAPTER 27 DEIRDRE
- CHAPTER 28 THEO
- CHAPTER 29 DEIRDRE
- CHAPTER 30 THEO
- CHAPTER 31 DEIRDRE
- CHAPTER 32 DEIRDRE
- CHAPTER 33 DEIRDRE
- CHAPTER 34 THEO
- CHAPTER 35 DEIRDRE
- CHAPTER 36 DEIRDRE
- CHAPTER 37 THEO
- PART THREE
- CHAPTER 38 DEIRDRE
- CHAPTER 39 DEIRDRE
- CHAPTER 40 THEO
- CHAPTER 41 DEIRDRE
- CHAPTER 42 THEO
- CHAPTER 43 DEIRDRE
- CHAPTER 44 DEIRDRE
- CHAPTER 45 THEO
- CHAPTER 46 DEIRDRE
- CHAPTER 47 THEO
- CHAPTER 48 THEO
- CHAPTER 49 DEIRDRE
- CHAPTER 50 DEIRDRE
- CHAPTER 51 THEO
- CHAPTER 52 THEO
- CHAPTER 53 DEIRDRE
- ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
- ABOUT THE AUTHOR
I went home to pick up the memory card, but I was too keyed up to stay in my dungeon room, and too exhausted to hit the dojo. I ended up at my neighborhood library. It looked like a middle school, three stories of beige-brown brick with a pair of fancy glass cubes some bougie architect dreamed up later. QUEENS LIBRARY was spelled out in shiny metal letters over the entrance. It was only when you got inside that the QUEENS PUBLIC LIBRARY AT ELMHURST sign was visible. It always sounded funny to me, like Elmhurst was a destination. My working-class neighborhood was best known for its horrifically high death rate in the pandemic.
Technically, you weren’t allowed to eat, but I’d learned you could quietly scarf down a protein bar just about anywhere. I decided to work my Ben Northcutt search harder. Reading about his work on a sleepless night had made him seem like a badass. Encountering him in the flesh made it clear he was a jackass. I had questions about Caro and her taste in men. She’d teased me about my aversion to relationships, but none of my hookups had tried to kill me or called me a criminal.
All I found was more of the same. Ben was a Big Deal in journalism, and aside from his career there was nothing interesting about him. As far as I could tell, he’d never been married and had no kids. Maybe he was a cipher, but he was a boring one.
After the clock ran out on my half-hour slot, I moved to a table and put the memory card in my laptop. All 1,702 photographs came up. But I opened the card’s settings and realized it was set to only show images. I changed it to show all files, and suddenly there were 1,798.
A shiver went down my spine.
That intense feeling lasted ten seconds, until I realized all the unseen files were spreadsheets. I skimmed each one, figuring a clue would jump out at me any second. Nothing did.
There was exactly one person I knew who loved spreadsheets. I texted Reagan, asking how late she was working.
Eight, she texted back. But no dojo tonight. Want to come over for dinner?
As a matter of fact, I did.
I had no other messages, not even from Snapp. I’d sent a text to T-Rex about Aubrey pouncing on me like a jackal, but there had only been radio silence. I didn’t mind being yelled at, but the quiet was unnerving.
At twenty to eight, I headed over to Reagan’s, stopping on the way for a bodega bouquet. Reagan and her mom lived in a cozy two-story house with gingerbread trim. It looked like it had popped out of a storybook. Mrs. Chen hugged me when I came in, and I didn’t even mind. It felt like home.