I wasn’t lying when I said I missed it. I lean forward and suck him into my mouth, swirling my tongue around the flared tip of his cock. Holden’s hips jerk, his hand sliding into my hair as I pull him deeper into my mouth. His grip tightens as my lips slide along his length.

Abruptly, he pulls away. “You’re too good at that.”

I lean down and kiss him, and he pulls me into his lap. Our mouths set a rhythm that our bodies match. He’s everywhere. A hot tongue in my mouth. A warm palm sliding under my sweater and into my bra. A hard penis rubbing between my legs.

I freeze when I feel the head probe my entrance. Holden stops kissing me, pulling back and studying me with concern. “What’s wrong?”

“Nothing. You just—I’m not—I’m not on anything. Sydney said the pills made her feel weird.” I fumble for words. He’s always worn a condom. His parents had him when they were teenagers, and that story didn’t have a happy ending.

Holden makes a face. “I really didn’t need to know my sister is on birth control, Cassia.”

“Graham hasn’t even kissed her yet.”

Holden glances down at our laps, then back up at me. “We don’t have to…we can slow down.”

I shake my head. “I want to. Just put on a condom.”

“I was going to. I’ve never…not.”

Part of me regrets bringing this up and ruining the moment now. But I’m also curious. “Never?”

He shakes his head. Probably wary of discussing other girls with me, which I appreciate.

“So if I did go on birth control, I’d be your first?”

Holden swallows. Nods. “Yeah.”

I’m putting myself out there a little, even if it is just in the context of sex. He’s not shutting the idea down or looking uncomfortable about me assuming we’ll sleep together again.

“You have all of mine,” I whisper.

“You have more of mine than you think,” he tells me before turning and opening one of the lockers.

When he turns back around, he’s holding a familiar foil packet.

I scooch back to watch him roll the condom on, biting my lower lip. “I know this is super convenient, so I’m glad you do. But seriously? You guys keep condoms in here?”

Holden smirks as he grabs my hips and pulls me back toward him. “I’ve never used one before. Never had sex in here.” His lips move just below my jawline, kissing the sensitive skin there. “Another first, flower.”