I went back to the hotel. There were no messages. I’d had a couple of calls, the desk man told me, but nobody’d left a name. I went upstairs and tried to sort out how I felt about Sunny’s suicide, but all I seemed to feel so far was numb. It was tempting to beat myself up with the thought that I might have learned something if I hadn’t saved her interrogation for last, might even have said or done something to forestall her suicide, but I couldn’t get much mileage out of that one. I’d talked to her on the phone. She could have said something and she hadn’t. And suicide, after all, was something she’d tried at least twice in the past, and very likely a time or two of which there’d been no record.

Try something long enough, sooner or later you get it right.

In the morning I had a light breakfast and went over to the bank, where I deposited some cash and bought a money order. I went to the post office and mailed it to Anita. I hadn’t given a whole lot of thought to my son’s orthodontia and now I could forget it altogether.

I walked on to St. Paul’s and lit a candle for Sonya Hendryx. I sat in a pew, giving myself a few minutes to remember Sunny. There wasn’t much to remember. We’d barely met. I couldn’t even recall very clearly what she looked like because her image in death pushed my dim memory of the living Sunny to the side.

It occurred to me that I owed the church money. Ten percent of Chance’s fee came to $250, and they were further entitled to a tithe of the three hundred bucks and change I’d taken off the kid who’d tried mugging me. I didn’t have an exact count but $350 struck me as a fair estimate, so I could give them $285 and call it even.

But I’d put most of my money in the bank. I had a few hundred dollars in my wallet but if I gave the church $285 I’d be strapped for walk-around money. I weighed the nuisance of another trip to the bank, and then the fundamental insanity of my little game struck me like a kidney punch.

What was I doing anyway? Why did I figure I owed anybody money? And who did I owe it to? Not the church, I didn’t belong to any church. I gave my tithes to whatever house of worship came along at the right time.

To whom, then, was I in debt? To God?

Where was the sense in that? And what was the nature of this debt? How did I owe it? Was I repaying borrowed funds? Or had I invented some sort of bribe scheme, some celestial protection racket?