Back Driving in the Dark
Chapters (27)
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  2. Title Page
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  19. Seventeen
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  23. Twenty-one
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  25. Twenty-three
  26. Twenty-four
  27. About the Author

Then he said: ‘He’s gone, man.’

‘Where?’

He drank from a can of Diet Pepsi. ‘Saudi-Arabia.’

His face loomed. The air pummelled me to and fro. ‘Dear Christ,’ I said. Somebody started the juke box. I raised my voice. ‘They’ve all gone?’

He shook his head. ‘Just Barry.’

‘Did they live here?’ I shouted.

He shook his head again. ‘Nope. He was a pal of mine. Not a mate. A pal.’

Through my illness I realized: Barry must have had his letters delivered here, the slimy git, so Lesley wouldn’t see them.

‘Is Lesley still here?’ I shouted. ‘And, you know, the kids?’

He took out the casket of chips, shued them and put them back into the oil. They spluttered. ‘Nope.’

‘She’s gone?’

He shrugged. ‘Ask Hilda.’

‘Hilda?’

‘Her friend, Hilda.’

He dwindled away, telescopic now. I gripped the counter; his face swung back.

‘Where does this Hilda live?’

‘Round the corner. Above Lots o’ Fun.’

I just made it to Lots o’ Fun. It was a video arcade—or, as they put it, a Family Entertainment Centre. Above it, there were some flats. I went up to the side door. There were only surnames on the bells—not even an H for Hilda.

I staggered into the arcade. It had a violent carpet, all blacks and oranges, worn grimy round the machines. The place was nearly empty but there was a lot of noise going on, bleeps and clatters, perhaps it was inside my brain. There was an alarming sound and one of the machines disgorged coins, as if it was having a haemorrhage.

A man sat in the Change booth. He was wizened like a gypsy and was reading Amateur Gardener. I grasped the counter, to steady myself.

‘Have you seen a lady called Hilda?’ I asked. ‘She lives upstairs.’

‘Upstairs?’

‘There’s flats upstairs,’ I said.

‘Are there?’ He put his fingers on the page, to keep his place. ‘Never looked.’

‘What’s the world coming to?’ I cried. Where’s your neighbourhood spirit?’

‘Uh?’ He hadn’t heard. ‘Hilda what?’

‘Don’t know.’

He scratched his nose. ‘What’s she look like?’

I paused. ‘Don’t know.’

He went back to his magazine. ‘Well, then.’

I thought I might faint soon, so I found my way back to my coach. Its curtains were still closed. The car park was still packed. All the people looked exactly the same ones as before. Time had ground to a halt. As I climbed the step, a group of people stopped and looked at me. A man called cheerfully: ‘Can we all join in?’

I closed the door. Now I was home, I felt much worse. I staggered down the aisle, knocking against the seats, and fell on to my blankets.