That little bulge which is the result of so many injections and minor surgeries. Things were put into the skin and under it, all in an attempt to kickstart and increase his Dominance. His father had been willing to let the doctors keep trying.

That hint of knot was the proof of what he should have been, so they said. The failure. Close but not. It almost looks right but isn’t.

Liam has already seen him naked and he still wants Daniel. He clings desperately to the idea.

His hand starts to move down and of course he hesitates, making sure the door is locked, worried someone is suddenly going to come in and yell at him or hurt him because he wants to touch himself. He has a Dominant now. A Dominant who doesn’t look at his body with shame and disgust or even disappointment. He wonders if his Dominant will touch his cock, rub the area or ignore it. Daniel isn’t even sure how it feels to be touched there. It’s something he’s been scared of for a while now.

He brushes his fingers gently over the area. It tingles and it might be pleasurable but he also hates it. It has a visceral feeling of wrongness.

Daniel turns away from the mirror and gets into the shower. He scrubs off the scent of the medical ward and his own distress. There’s blood under his nails and dried on his skin. He rinses off the lubricant Liam used to do the ultrasound exam. He hasn’t been wet like that in a long time, not that most (or any?) of it is actually his.

And yet, he’s been focused on not being wet for so long that the sudden switch in his thinking doesn’t feel right either. His underwear wet with slick was a bad thing. Sometimes they’d show him, made sure there were lots of people around, staring clinically at his dirty laundry as they discussed it. The quantity of it, the scent. They’d told his father that shame was a powerful motivator for behavioral change. They’d shamed him so much for his biology that he’d have done anything rather than be wet. But now he’s got a Dominant and the Dominant will want him wet.

Right?

He’s only got one gland so he can’t do that well, even if he is certain he wants to. Daniel’s dizzy then, certain and afraid that anything he does is going to be wrong.

And then Liam will look at him with disgust.