Chapters (50)
- 1. Weddings and funerals
- Weddings and funerals
- 2. A deep regret
- A deep regret
- 3. A bloody nightmare
- A bloody nightmare
- 4. The importance of traditions
- The importance of traditions
- 5. A walking angel
- A walking angel
- 6. Vicious little mouse
- Vicious little mouse
- 7. Walk of shame
- Walk of shame
- 8. Dogs and other animals
- Dogs and other animals
- 9. A cold-blooded killer
- A cold-blooded killer
- 10. Northport
- Northport
- 11. A gilded cage
- A gilded cage
- 12. Observation
- Observation
- 13. We bleed together
- We bleed together
- 14. Everyone had something
- Everyone had something
- 15. High end champagne
- High end champagne
- 16. Transgressions
- Transgressions
- 17. An entire bowl of bullshit
- An entire bowl of bullshit
- 18. Boundaries
- Boundaries
- 19. ‘Til death and beyond
- ‘Til death and beyond
- 20. How do you do it?
- How do you do it?
- 21. Only human
- Only human
- 22. The Disciples
- The Disciples
- 23. Done
- Done
- 24. At peace
- At peace
- Epilogue
- ACCEPTANCE.
“Ugh,” was all I managed to choke out before I felt Ettore’s body shake once in silent laughter.
Mortified at my reaction to this man, I peeked up at him with blazing cheeks to find him looking down at me with a smile so slight, I could have imagined it.
I had never been close enough to man to have shared little moments. But when he released my hand, brought his thumb to my pulsing, swollen lips and gently cleaned the smeared lipstick off of my lip line, the small, intimate act caused something odd to happen to me.
A piece of my broken heart began to repair itself. In that moment I thought, all things considered, it could be worse.
Yes, this marriage would forever have brutal roots, but if we were both willing, if we nurtured it, it could grow into something strong. Into something beautiful.
It was typical that at the very moment I found a splinter of hope in this impossible situation, I heard my sisters disturbingly ecstatic voice in my head.
We can ruin him, Vicky.
As if it were an admission of guilt, I searched for her at the bridal table. She sat watching me closely and I felt her gaze pierce my insides. She lifted her glass, sipping on bourbon. Anyone who looked at her then would find nothing untoward in her body language. I knew better.
Vincenza was furious.
One couple joined us on the dancefloor, then another, and soon, the reception became a lively event. And, yes, our families would never truly trust each other, but there was a certain amount of respect one had to offer.
I chanced a look at Ettore. He was an ominously handsome man.
I wasn’t the only one who felt a change in the air around us and we exchange a knowing look, our expressions turning somber and, together, we became solemn. This wedding was the least of our problems. Eventually, we would have to leave and go home together. Ettore now had to live with the woman who attempted a murder suicide in a church and I had a husband who…
No.
It hurt to even think it.
Marriages like ours were common in the ranks. I was under no assumptions that we would ever be more than glorified roommates. There would be no love lost between us and what I had attempted today meant there would also be no trust.
I knew what was expected of me. I would be seen and not heard. Under normal circumstances, I would have born Ettore’s children, but as I had learned, he already had three. He would be free to take on as many mistresses as he wished, so long as he kept them private, and I would be stuck in the prison that was his home, alone and lonely.
I wished things could have been different but I still counted myself lucky.