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Chapters (39)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for Hannah Begbie:
  3. Dedication
  4. Chapter 1
  5. Chapter 2
  6. Chapter 3
  7. Chapter 4
  8. Chapter 5
  9. Chapter 6
  10. Chapter 7
  11. Chapter 8
  12. Chapter 9
  13. Chapter 10
  14. Chapter 11
  15. Chapter 12
  16. Chapter 13
  17. Chapter 14
  18. Chapter 15
  19. Chapter 16
  20. Chapter 17
  21. Chapter 18
  22. Chapter 19
  23. Chapter 20
  24. Chapter 21
  25. Chapter 22
  26. Chapter 23
  27. Chapter 24
  28. Chapter 25
  29. Chapter 26
  30. Chapter 27
  31. Chapter 28
  32. Chapter 29
  33. Chapter 30
  34. Acknowledgements
  35. If you enjoyed Blurred Lines, keep reading for a taste of Hannah Begbie’s first novel Mother.
  36. PROLOGUE
  37. About the Author
  38. Also by Hannah Begbie
  39. About the Publisher

His voice is warm milk and whisky. He has described her as someone who works with and not for him and he has used her full name. Pathetic, she thinks, so pathetic, that she feels important to him when he speaks it, as if the name she was given is worth more coming from his mouth. And yet, her legs feel a little stronger and she sits a little taller now.

‘Alex is a film critic. Alex Simms?’ says Matthew.

‘Ah yes,’ she says, recognizing him from his byline. ‘I love your reviews. Always unsparing, always very funny.’

His shoulders flex a little wider. Becky can tell he’s pleased.

‘I hope I’ve spared anyone you know,’ he says.

‘I think you called Tommy Sheridan’s last effort “well-intentioned”. He was in the office last week for a meeting. Said he cried for a week, but didn’t deny you’d nailed it.’

Alex laughs. Delighted. ‘He’s a good director but he’s got a terrible sweet tooth,’ he says.

‘I think he’ll end up doing musicals and making an absolute fortune,’ says Becky.

‘You’re a hundred per cent right.’

Matthew smiles. And Becky has the odd sensation that she is standing outside her own life, watching a woman in her skin do a half-decent job of this thing which is flirting and flattery and bonding and, she supposes, networking.

Alex is a good deal shorter than her. His eyes are pale and filled with a darting energy that makes him look like a young deer until he smiles, when the fine skin around his eyes concertinas to betray his age. He looks at the ruffle lining her décolletage first, and then meets her eyes second. Becky remembers to give them warmth but without the insinuation of an invitation. Her price isn’t ever her own body, but she knows that’s by no means the case for those around her.

‘So you’re meeting with Emilia? I just came out of the screening for her new film actually,’ he says.

‘How was it?’

‘Reviews are embargoed till midnight, but it’s five stars. It’s going to win everything.’

‘What’s she like in it?’ asks Matthew.

‘Yeah, well, what to say … she’s great. But she’s not the lead. She’ll get a supporting nod. She’ll want the main course next.’

‘That’s brilliant,’ says Becky. ‘I think she’s incredible.’

‘You’ll struggle to get her now, my friend.’

She feels Matthew’s eyes on her. It’s not like it’s a test; this is just the back and forth of a conversation, but still. How to say the perfect thing. How to be confident and not frightened, not cocky but still impregnable. Is that what this place wants?

‘Well,’ says Becky finally, ‘I’ve got something in common with Emilia. We’d both like to see her win Best Actress.’